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robinsnest) wrote2004-12-04 04:49 pm
robinsnest) wrote2004-12-04 04:49 pm
Why does it scare me?
Why does drunkedness bother me so much. I don't mind being around people drinking, I don't mind people doing it socially, but I really don't like when People drink to get drunk. somehow it just seems destructive I guess.
I slept alone for the first time since break last night, and I was troubled by very disturbing nightmares. I dreamt that Mike burst into my room drunk and frightening, that he was yelling at me and I didn't understand, I think he might have hit me but I'm not sure. then I remember he left and got into his car and I was terrified that he was going to drive, but I couldn't get out of bed I was stuck, I couldn't stop it and I knew I just KNEW something terrible was going to happen. I woke up gasping and reached for Mike who of course wasn't there to comfort me. :-( not a pleasant evening. I think I've gotten used to his breathing. I had a hard time falling back asleep.
In other news. anyone wanna go to the shape of things with me tonight?
I slept alone for the first time since break last night, and I was troubled by very disturbing nightmares. I dreamt that Mike burst into my room drunk and frightening, that he was yelling at me and I didn't understand, I think he might have hit me but I'm not sure. then I remember he left and got into his car and I was terrified that he was going to drive, but I couldn't get out of bed I was stuck, I couldn't stop it and I knew I just KNEW something terrible was going to happen. I woke up gasping and reached for Mike who of course wasn't there to comfort me. :-( not a pleasant evening. I think I've gotten used to his breathing. I had a hard time falling back asleep.
In other news. anyone wanna go to the shape of things with me tonight?
damnit, I wasn't that drunk