scary appointment one done

[robinsnest]

 an update on the journey to the center of my uterus 

I had my follow up appointment to go over the results of blood work today. I was pleasantly surprised when Rob rushed back from his own psych appointment because he wanted to come with me. I thought that was sweet and supportive of him. 

The long and the short of it is that my labs were mostly normal, but my ratios of hormones were wrong. it should be 1:1 FSH and LH and mine was 2:1 and my progesterone indicated I didn't ovulate. Which really doesn't surprise me, I didn't think I did. My androgen levels were low so she said I wasn't a text book PCOS patient but something very "PCOS like."

So now what? She said lots of women in my position respond super well to clomid. It's one of the most ubiquitous fertility drugs on the market, which is nice as the side effects are really well documented. I know several people for whom that has worked. So the plan will be I take 5 days of Povera same as I did before to bring a period and kind of re-set my cycle. On day 5-7 I take clomid. Days 13-19 they tell you to sexy it up (at least every other day) then in 28 days if your'e not pregnant you get labs done to check progesterone and see if you ovulated. If you didn't ovulate they adjust the clomid as they start you on a very low dose. 

She said "you don't have to do it right now if your'e not ready" and I'm not ready RIGHT NOW but we're at the "shit or get off the pot" part. So we filled the Rxs and when I get back from Disney is go time. I assume I'll vomit the entire time as my mom did and I vomit for any reason and I don't wanna be ill at Disney. 
suddenly it all feels rather real and slightly terrifying. I mean that's normal right? 

Comments

[elizabeth_mn]

Lol at "journey to the center of my uterus"!

Good luck with the Clomid. Additionally, Clomid is a hilarious word; when my sister was on it we had endless fun saying it to each other in increasingly gargling accents. So there's that to look forward to. :)

[brickhousewench]

Yeah, babies are about as real and terrifying as it gets.

Good luck!

[frualeydis]

Babies are scary, but also wonderful.
Good luck - and it is perfectly normal to feel nervous.

/Eva

[danabren]

I'm not brave enough to have a kid. I'm depressed and angry and selfish and lazy. My house is a mess that I can barely keep up with, I have three cats that annoy me when they distract me from something I am doing, and a husband who fights depression, is unemployed, and partially disabled. And don't even get me started on the very idea of not sleeping for years while cleaning up someone else's poop.

But those folks who want kids, more power to 'em. You have my support, and my best hopes for your choices. May your child be healthy and perfect!

[ktlovely]

Oh hello, are you me? You might be me...except minus one cat.

But I so admire the people who can commit to being responsible for another human like that, even though I'm not up for it!

[danabren]

I don't want to shit on Robin's post and her life hopes, so I will just agree and say that I don't want to be responsible for someone else either LOL

[robinsnest]

I do find it comforting that if at the end of it we can't have kids for any reason I have a lot of happy childless friends who are childless by choice and can tell me all the perks of not being a parent.

[danabren]

There are perks to both, I have been told. I have godchildren, and that is more than enough for me LOL

[mala_14]

*hugs* Glad that scary appointment 1 seems to have gone well! And yeah, the whole thing sounds scary but in a normal way. Wishing you lots of luck! Things will be OK!

[mrs_maupin]

Crossing all fingers and toes that things work out quickly and as little illness as possible !

[padawansguide]

I was terrified all through our fertility process. About treatment, about pregnancy, about having a kid, about whether I really wanted a kid (even 4 IVFs in, I wasn't sure what the hell I was doing). From this side of things, my daughter is the best thing ever and she was worth everything we went through, and having a baby was awesome and not terrible like I was afraid it would be.

We didn't do Clomid, so I can't advise on that, but I definitely know people it worked for! So fingers crossed! I think waiting til after your trip is a great idea. :-)

[howlgirl]

Being a mom is awesome, it's also frustrating and exhausting. Good luck!