reason number 1,576 why I love Carolyn

Me: the boy is ignoring me
Carolyn: aww poke him, with a sharp stick
Me: that's difficult since he's at KDR
Carolyn: and then strip, cover yourself with honey BBQ sauce and tell him you're waiting for him in a sultry voice
Me: LOL
Carolyn: everybody loves bbq sauce, yes? i certaintly do...
Carolyn: mmmmmmmmmm bbq sauce, the sexiest stuff on the planet
Carolyn: and tastes MUCH better then edible underwear
Carolyn: ::nods sagely::

reason number 1,576 why I love Carolyn

Me: the boy is ignoring me
Carolyn: aww poke him, with a sharp stick
Me: that's difficult since he's at KDR
Carolyn: and then strip, cover yourself with honey BBQ sauce and tell him you're waiting for him in a sultry voice
Me: LOL
Carolyn: everybody loves bbq sauce, yes? i certaintly do...
Carolyn: mmmmmmmmmm bbq sauce, the sexiest stuff on the planet
Carolyn: and tastes MUCH better then edible underwear
Carolyn: ::nods sagely::

I'm struggling very hard with the urge to cut myself

I spent most of my morning vomitting up everything that was and wasn't in my system, I feel week, dizzy and all around gross.

the worst part was I couldn't make my head focus on doing anything so I'm experiencing a major case of feeling gross.

Mike's being distant and I've sat here so long I'm convinced he's done with me, and I stupidly let myself fall head over heels for someone who is going to break up with me because I'm fucked up, I'm always sick, I'm boring I don't even know why.

I just want to feel pain other than in my stomach and my head. but I'm trying so very hard to be strong right now. very very hard.

I'm struggling very hard with the urge to cut myself

I spent most of my morning vomitting up everything that was and wasn't in my system, I feel week, dizzy and all around gross.

the worst part was I couldn't make my head focus on doing anything so I'm experiencing a major case of feeling gross.

Mike's being distant and I've sat here so long I'm convinced he's done with me, and I stupidly let myself fall head over heels for someone who is going to break up with me because I'm fucked up, I'm always sick, I'm boring I don't even know why.

I just want to feel pain other than in my stomach and my head. but I'm trying so very hard to be strong right now. very very hard.