I spent most of my morning vomitting up everything that was and wasn't in my system, I feel week, dizzy and all around gross.
the worst part was I couldn't make my head focus on doing anything so I'm experiencing a major case of feeling gross.
Mike's being distant and I've sat here so long I'm convinced he's done with me, and I stupidly let myself fall head over heels for someone who is going to break up with me because I'm fucked up, I'm always sick, I'm boring I don't even know why.
I just want to feel pain other than in my stomach and my head. but I'm trying so very hard to be strong right now. very very hard.
the worst part was I couldn't make my head focus on doing anything so I'm experiencing a major case of feeling gross.
Mike's being distant and I've sat here so long I'm convinced he's done with me, and I stupidly let myself fall head over heels for someone who is going to break up with me because I'm fucked up, I'm always sick, I'm boring I don't even know why.
I just want to feel pain other than in my stomach and my head. but I'm trying so very hard to be strong right now. very very hard.
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Date: 2004-12-02 05:39 am (UTC)Feel pain? Hell anyone can do that. Your going through collage...That's a pain enough..Not in the head or stomach..But in the Ass...Yeah, Weak attempt at a joke.
Just cheer up. Stay strong. Im always Online if ya need me.. If ya dont already ahve my screen name its DissentDisaster.
So, If ya see me on. hit me up kid. Im alway good to listen.
I'm off to bed. PeaCe
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Date: 2004-12-03 06:23 am (UTC)And you're not fucked up, either.
So there.