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Gramps passed away around 7:30 this morning. My mother had stepped out to go check on Granny and as is so common (no really research has shown it) he joined the ranks of people who waited till their loved ones left and passed on. I am torn between grief and relief. He was suffering. He wasn't there. My spunky, loved, funny, clever, devoted and smart grandfather had left months if not years ago. He was just a shell, a slowly dying shell. And I know he'd have hated that....but that doesn't make it any easier to say goodbye.  I realize how increadibly blessed I am at the age of 33 to have just lost my first grandparent. But...even though I knew it was coming, in some ways wanted it to come so he could be at peace...my heart breaks.

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For the first year ever Rob and I didn't go anywhere for Thanksgiving this year. We laid low, and counted pennies to get us a thanksgiving feast. I was very careful with the budgeting, was super proud of myself for doing the whole thing for under $35.00. It helped that we ate with several friends so I didn't have to provide the whole meal. But I got a nice big turkey, make a double batch of stuffing, gravy, pumpkin pie with homemade whipped cream and make a new nice centerpiece. That was a pretty big accomplishment for me! I made a big chart and compared all the prices for the ingredients I would need, hey I know time is money but I have the time and not the money! 

It all went relatively smoothly, as smooth as it was apt to go in my closet of a kitchen. Rob's brother joined us as well as Alice and we actually ate in my upstairs neighbors apt. It was a lovely meal with friend, and while a job isn't on the list I have a lot to be thankful for this year and stopping to remember is a GOOD THING. It's easy to get lost in the unemployed-my-life-is-a-mess feeling. But really I have great friends (LJ friends counted high on the list!), a wonderful family, an amazing husband, and two cute chinchillas that are looking at me lovingly at the moment (I'm pretty sure it's a ploy for raisins, but I shall ignore that and bask in the loving faces). And that's a lot more than a lot of people have. 

We decided as it was the one year when we were at home we'd live dangerously and go to Macy's at midnight...WOW...just wow...I kinda thought it'd be deserted, but boy was I wrong!...I think I made it about 30 min before I had an enormous GET ME OUT OF HERE urge. Clearly I'm not destined for crazy Black Friday shopping.

Today Rob and his brother went to a Flyers game downtown so I had a lovely quiet day. There was minimal thanksgiving mess to clean us as I was super careful to clean as we went yesterday, leaving me free to make some stays progress! I cranked up the Christmas Carols and got too it. I managed to squeak the interlinings out of some duck cloth I had on hand, which was AWESOME. I'd really like for this to be an all stash project and I was pretty sure I needed more interlining so huzzah! So far they're all cut out and I got the boning channels all marked on one half and I was standing pondering how the hell I was going to copy them exactly to the other side when Rob got home.

Now I am stuffed with leftover thanksgiving goodness, listening to Christmas music and about to dig into the pile of decorations boxes brought in from the car. 
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Well we made it safely home from the Parents. Very uneventful drive. Mostly I slept and Rob drove. He's a good man.

I keep waking up thinking I'm late for work, I over slept, my alarm didn't go off..but then there's no where to be.  At least I'm up, and when I finish this I shall shower and force myself to start working on the day. 

I order the book [livejournal.com profile] brickhousewench recommended, found it for super cheap on half.com (I like to write in books, libraries always seem to frown on that habit of mine) it was less than $5.00 shipped so I didn't feel bad about the expense.

I'm also sending in a check today for our local harvest festival. It's only $15.00 a space, I did it last year with the upstairs neighbor. I didn't make a ton, but I made some. And heck at this point it's something to keep me busy and bring in a few bucks right?  

I never got around to ordering fabric for my 18th century jacket so now I'm not positive what to do. [livejournal.com profile] blackcat452 has offered me some of her gorgeous fabric, but I feel like I'm becoming a fabric mooch!!  I swung through my local Jomar last week and found na-da and I know Joann's hasn't got a thing. I have some wools I could use, but a solid wool on top and a solid wool on the bottom sounds so boring. I know it's perfectly period, but it just sounds bland. I need some pizzaz! I do still have blue taffeta from my aunt that finally arrived, am I nuts to think about making a polonaise gown? yeah I know I'm nuts..someone smack me...
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Yesterday was my Birthday and thanks to my family and Rob turned out to be a pretty lovely one.

Rob and I went to the apple orchard that was apparently my very first outing (shockingly I don't remember this). But I do remember going in pre-school, playgroup, first grade, and just with my family. It's a very sweet local orchard that has pick your own, a little store of all local produce/products and a small resturant. and the world's BEST apple cider doughnuts. They do pick-your-own by a volume system instead of weight, so the smallest amount you could buy was a bag that held 60 apples! So we now have more Cortlands than I really know what to do with. My grand plan is to make applesauce and can it for the winter. I have this crazy contraption we used as kids called the SqueezO it's a giant food mill.  And it shall make me loads of sauce!



When we got home from apple picking I crashed out and took a nice long nap. My Mom got home from work and frosted a cake for me. With the most amazing homemade frosting ever! She melted chocolate chips in the microwave, added sour cream and vanilla and a pinch of salt and voila! It's sooo delicious. Then we opened a few gifts. Okay everyone but Rob gave me a birthday check (apparently they're sensing I might need cash more than other things) but Rob got me A MEMBERSHIP TO DRESS U!!! WITH ALL THE EVENTS!!! WHEEEE I'm going and doing ALL OF IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAYAYAYAY So a special thank you to [livejournal.com profile] madamekat for helping him find the right website! BEST BIRTHDAY GIFT EVAH!

Now this morning it's raining and dreary, and I know I SHOULD go home, but I don't really want to. Rob and Mark are both still asleep and Mom's left for work. I think I might go doze and watch morning TV for a bit.
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So I'm at my parents house after a weekend excursion into the Catskill mountains with my Sister, Brother-in-law, adopted Sister, adopted BIL, Husband and Brother. It was really wonderful. When there's nothing but the stars to look at and a campfire to cook with you find it kind of easy to shut off. The nights were brisk, in the 20s, but we had fancy warm sleeping bags and a roaring fire.

On Saturday morning we hiked up this trail to Artists Rock which has a stunning view all up the Hudson River Valley. It was a favorite painting spot of the Hudson River school artists and I can see why, it's a gorgeous view for miles. Farther up the mountain was Sunset Rock which faced west into the canyon and had a stunning view of the twin lakes North-South Lake campsite is named for. I'll post pictures when I figure out how to extract them from my brothers camera.

Now I'm at my parents house and surrounded by all the things I find comforting and yet feeling a little lost. These pink walls (yup my mom let me pick my room color when I was 9..) are a world where everything is okay. And outside here I don't really know what to do. It reminds me how incredibly blessed I was to grow up as a child where this house is my safe place and I didn't have to look elsewhere for that.  I fear I'll never be able to provide a child with the kind of stability my parents did.

On the car ride to my parents from the campground Rob started telling me that he thinks we should shoot instructional sewing videos. All kinds, historical and not. Perhaps paired with a pattern, perhaps including drafting your own. For example, you will need XYZ pattern and this DVD to create this entire outfit. I know sewing tutorials are very useful, I'm just sure there's a market for selling DVDs like that, or even downloadable one offs. I did think a DVD of advanced sewing techniques might be useful, welt pockets, bound buttonholes, sewing a packet, etc. I don't know, but it's possible we'll try. After all all we'd pay for is "labor" and at the moment I have that in spades. And I have a professional Film maker in my living room most days...I wish this feeling of anger and dread would dissipate.
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Well I had all these grand plans of bodice construction last night...but life happens.

Rob's brother broke up with his serious-thought-it-was-forever girlfriend. He came over here last night and the rest of my night was spent hearing about the whole story. I feel really bad for the guy. And I now know more about what they've done for the last two weeks than I think I remember about my own. 

So this morning we went to the diner for breakfast and now Rob took him off to a movie so I can try to salvage any attempt of having this dress to wear to Belvidere...but I won't lie, hope is fading fast. 

So far this morning I got the mock-up taken back apart and drafted out a new pattern from it. Next step cutting out the bodice.
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 Hmm so a lot has happened since I blogged last...

Lets see, I went up to upstate NY 2, Vermont 1, saw almost the entirety of my family , oh yeah and got married. I'll post a quicky write up of that some other time when the pictures come back, but in the meantime I've moved back to costume things. What can I say, I'm looking to return to that which creatively fulfills me :-)

So my next event this year is Belvidere, If and it's a big if, I can reclaim my sewing room from wedding central, I'd like to make something new. The problem is I have zero idea what. I feel all over the place and kind of lost. I know it's a combination of not being able to see my floor and the post-wedding crash but I just feel lost! 

Someone just tell me what to make...
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So My Mom and Sister are coming here tomorrow for my bridal shower, and therefore someone will be sleeping on the spare bed in the sewing room...currently this bed is being used as a storage/dumping ground in my sewing room. So I really need to clean it off and tidy up in there. But I just can't seem to get myself to focus today.  I'm all anxious about everything. My house is cluttered. Try as I might Rob and I just seem to accumulate stuff. We have stuff heavy hobbies. So I feel embarassed about my house. I was informed on Wednesday that while Molly invited a bunch of people to the shower turn out has been "very low" which makes me feel bad. They're paying for this big fancy place because we couldn't possibly have something in my small backyard. But if no one's coming we could all have saved a pretty penny and just done it in my tiny backyard! I know all the reason's people aren't coming. I KNEW there were events that weekend, and and apparently one of the Coccagna's has a big graduation so I cannot begrudge them not coming, and the wedding guest list isn't huge so it's a limited amount of women to invite to begin with, and most of my family is far far away. But even though I know alllll the rational things I still can't help feeling like the 'uncool kid' who no one will come to their party.

And I REALLy need to get in there and clean but all I want to do is pace.
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*THUD*

Mom was in town to make me stop avoiding wedding planning in two days we:
  • met florist #1 (2 hour consultation)
  • Had lunch at the welcome dinner catering place
  • went to Bridal Salon one to look at the dress Molly likes better
  • went to the tux store and reserved the tuxedos
  • went to David's to look at the bridesmaid dress I liked but couldn't get a dressing room.
  • went to the thrift store and cleaned them out of milk glass
  • went BACK to David's to try on the dress from Mom that I liked. realized all their shoes have huge heels so there goes the shoes I liked best. Their selection of headpieces is also very lacking
  • Went to Wegman's to look into cake options, bought small cake to try
  • went to park where I want to have welcome dinner
  • went to Joann's and bought invitation kits to make invitations
  • went to Guenardi's to look into cakes
  • tasted cakes in car. Wegman's is FAR FAR better
  • Met with Florist #2 (2 hour consultation)
And then Mom had to go home and I'm home alone while Rob works. I've gone from full speed to stop and I'm exhausted! I'm looking forward to work tomorrow because it's totally non-wedding related...but I've been watching the huge pile of orders pile up and my elbows hurt just thinking about it. Plus I gots tons of printing to do for Gulf Wars. I better enjoy this quiet evening and recharge my batteries quickly! Tomorrow is another busy day!

And Rob just txted me "Five months from now we'll be married" mmm it's a nice night to listen to the rain.
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So I was going to write one of these great Costume recaps like everyone else and then I came the horrible realization that I only made TWO outfits all year...and one was only a bodice. I MUST improve this for next year. However I did accomplish a fair amount in life, so to make me feel better my things-that-got-in-the-way-of-costuming recap

1. I took a non-matriculated graduate course at temple in the spring semester. I had to read around 700 pages a week...I ended with a B+

2. Rob and I moved into an apt that required gutting and rebuilding the kitchen, along with repainting everything, scraping the ceiling and insulating the walls. I did however learn to and installed a sink all by myself!

3. Rob and I got engaged and with that came all the wedding planning crap. I bought a dress, set a date, and found a location.

4. I suckered , begged, convinced [livejournal.com profile] kass_rants that she should hire me to a fabulously exciting new job! So I'm leaving Joann's in 6 more shifts. And tomorrow I don't even have to be grumpy about since it's a holiday and I get time and a half. I will miss the good people I work with but I am SO ready to join the fabulous team at RH. I'm going to bring treats my first day since I figure if I win them over with treats I'll be starting on the right foot.

So with all that said I don't feel so bad about not having had time or energy to make stuff. I'm sure with my new job where I'll be dressing up much more I shall very quickly get tired of the same 10 outfits  I currently have and make lots of things for events.

and now to watch the ball drop in my jammies and be in bed by 12:30 as I have to work at 7 tomorrow and am old.
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A few things I am thankful for...

My Family. I am incredibly blessed to have a family who plays boardgames after dinner, eats the pie I forgot to put eggs in with a smile, and supports me whole heartedly in everything I do. I take for granted sometimes that family is my rock, they will always lift me up when I am down.

Rob. I am so thankful to have such a wonderful loving,supportive, handsome, creative partner to go through life with. I cannot imagine my life without him. And he fits in just perfectly with my family.

My job. Yes it has caused me lots of stress over the past few months, but as the dust has settled I look back and realize what a significantly better place financially we are then we were last year. In this economy I feel thankful that my personal income is drastically higher this year than it was last year.

My health.

That I was lucky enough to be born in a prosperous country where I can take for granted things like running water, electricity and the internet.

That today is blackfriday which means I can DECORATE!!! ha ha! Now Rob cannot stop me! I LOVE CHRISTMAS DECORATIONS! WHEEEEEEE
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A few things I am thankful for...

My Family. I am incredibly blessed to have a family who plays boardgames after dinner, eats the pie I forgot to put eggs in with a smile, and supports me whole heartedly in everything I do. I take for granted sometimes that family is my rock, they will always lift me up when I am down.

Rob. I am so thankful to have such a wonderful loving,supportive, handsome, creative partner to go through life with. I cannot imagine my life without him. And he fits in just perfectly with my family.

My job. Yes it has caused me lots of stress over the past few months, but as the dust has settled I look back and realize what a significantly better place financially we are then we were last year. In this economy I feel thankful that my personal income is drastically higher this year than it was last year.

My health.

That I was lucky enough to be born in a prosperous country where I can take for granted things like running water, electricity and the internet.

That today is blackfriday which means I can DECORATE!!! ha ha! Now Rob cannot stop me! I LOVE CHRISTMAS DECORATIONS! WHEEEEEEE

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