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At two pm today I go back to Joann's to fill out paper work. To start back as a part time associate...right back where I started in 2008. Rationally I know that I'm in a totally different place. I just need to work while I wait to get into nursing school. But...it really burns a little.

I think one of the reasons it stings so much is that when Kass fired me from RH she said "well you can just go back to Joann's" like she was returning a pack of needles she didn't end up needing. Of course I couldn't, they had filled my full time position immediately. She wanted me to go back to where I had started, erasing all the years I had previously worked there like it was nothing. I was disposable. I vowed I wouldn't do what she dismissively told me to do...and now I am. I really failed.

I realize we all do adult things we don't want to do. I realize this is just part of that whole grown-up thing. Putting what's best for my family ahead of my own anxiety and pride....but that doesn't make it hurt less.

Sometimes being an adult really stinks. 

So I was going to write one of these great Costume recaps like everyone else and then I came the horrible realization that I only made TWO outfits all year...and one was only a bodice. I MUST improve this for next year. However I did accomplish a fair amount in life, so to make me feel better my things-that-got-in-the-way-of-costuming recap

1. I took a non-matriculated graduate course at temple in the spring semester. I had to read around 700 pages a week...I ended with a B+

2. Rob and I moved into an apt that required gutting and rebuilding the kitchen, along with repainting everything, scraping the ceiling and insulating the walls. I did however learn to and installed a sink all by myself!

3. Rob and I got engaged and with that came all the wedding planning crap. I bought a dress, set a date, and found a location.

4. I suckered , begged, convinced kass_rants that she should hire me to a fabulously exciting new job! So I'm leaving Joann's in 6 more shifts. And tomorrow I don't even have to be grumpy about since it's a holiday and I get time and a half. I will miss the good people I work with but I am SO ready to join the fabulous team at RH. I'm going to bring treats my first day since I figure if I win them over with treats I'll be starting on the right foot.

So with all that said I don't feel so bad about not having had time or energy to make stuff. I'm sure with my new job where I'll be dressing up much more I shall very quickly get tired of the same 10 outfits  I currently have and make lots of things for events.

and now to watch the ball drop in my jammies and be in bed by 12:30 as I have to work at 7 tomorrow and am old.