sometimes being an adult is hard
May. 13th, 2013 12:02 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
robinsnestAt two pm today I go back to Joann's to fill out paper work. To start back as a part time associate...right back where I started in 2008. Rationally I know that I'm in a totally different place. I just need to work while I wait to get into nursing school. But...it really burns a little.
I think one of the reasons it stings so much is that when Kass fired me from RH she said "well you can just go back to Joann's" like she was returning a pack of needles she didn't end up needing. Of course I couldn't, they had filled my full time position immediately. She wanted me to go back to where I had started, erasing all the years I had previously worked there like it was nothing. I was disposable. I vowed I wouldn't do what she dismissively told me to do...and now I am. I really failed.
I realize we all do adult things we don't want to do. I realize this is just part of that whole grown-up thing. Putting what's best for my family ahead of my own anxiety and pride....but that doesn't make it hurt less.
Sometimes being an adult really stinks.
I think one of the reasons it stings so much is that when Kass fired me from RH she said "well you can just go back to Joann's" like she was returning a pack of needles she didn't end up needing. Of course I couldn't, they had filled my full time position immediately. She wanted me to go back to where I had started, erasing all the years I had previously worked there like it was nothing. I was disposable. I vowed I wouldn't do what she dismissively told me to do...and now I am. I really failed.
I realize we all do adult things we don't want to do. I realize this is just part of that whole grown-up thing. Putting what's best for my family ahead of my own anxiety and pride....but that doesn't make it hurt less.
Sometimes being an adult really stinks.
