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[robinsnest]

I'm struggling. I won't lie. I'm struggling to not feel bitter, I'm struggling to not feel hopeless. I'm struggling to not curl up in the fetal position and cry all day.

So I'm trying to take baby steps. I emailed the head of the historic preservation program at BCCC this morning. I showered (yup it's that bad I'll call that an accomplishment). I made the bed.

The goal for today is two more pairs of baby booties for the craft show I'm doing with my friend Amanda on Saturday. So far I have 3 finished pairs and one practically finished pair. They're very sweet and they're finally getting my creative juices flowing. They're wool felt (okay one pair is plain felt they were my practice) with embroidered designs. So far I have the things left over from last year (Hand stamped onsies, bibs, and fleece hats), and I still need to make more bibs, orange and black hats, and stamp tea towels. 

I should probably eat something too. c'mon Robin you can do this.

/end whine

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Re: who am i

[sewloud.livejournal.com]

Thanks :-) It's not that I want a fortune 500 job. I want to stop living on the brink of financial ruin. The stress is ridiculous, I want a regular schedule. I have a college degree I'm still paying off! The trick is my degree is a skill set I can no longer use, (costume construction + sever tendon problems = no go). So I think there's more education in my future. So I guess I want a career in the sense that I want financial security, and I want to be able to start a family. This damn BA better prove useful for something!