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[robinsnest]

I'm struggling. I won't lie. I'm struggling to not feel bitter, I'm struggling to not feel hopeless. I'm struggling to not curl up in the fetal position and cry all day.

So I'm trying to take baby steps. I emailed the head of the historic preservation program at BCCC this morning. I showered (yup it's that bad I'll call that an accomplishment). I made the bed.

The goal for today is two more pairs of baby booties for the craft show I'm doing with my friend Amanda on Saturday. So far I have 3 finished pairs and one practically finished pair. They're very sweet and they're finally getting my creative juices flowing. They're wool felt (okay one pair is plain felt they were my practice) with embroidered designs. So far I have the things left over from last year (Hand stamped onsies, bibs, and fleece hats), and I still need to make more bibs, orange and black hats, and stamp tea towels. 

I should probably eat something too. c'mon Robin you can do this.

/end whine

Comments

[jennylafleur.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[sewloud.livejournal.com]

thanks

[madamekat.livejournal.com]

Awww, Honey! I'm so sorry you are going though this. I really hope it's of short duration and something perfect appears during your search soon!

[sewloud.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Me too.

[curiouschilde.livejournal.com]

*hugs* You will get through this! One day at a time. Work towards this craft show. And yes, taking a shower is an accomplishment!!

[sewloud.livejournal.com]

The worst part with showering is you have to start all over again the next day :-p

[brickhousewench.livejournal.com]

Yay for getting creative juices flowing. And making things.

The hardest part of being unemployed is the depression, the unscheduled days, and the worry.

You're strong, you can do it!

[sewloud.livejournal.com]

It's so true! But hopefully next week things will start to come together with my volunteering at a local historical site. *fingers crossed*

[blackcat452.livejournal.com]

Chin up, dear. Things will get better, just try to set goals for the day, give yourself something to do, and remember to take care of yourself. You'll get through this.

[sewloud.livejournal.com]

Thanks

[aylwen.livejournal.com]

Have you also thought about send a letter by mail? Sometimes emailing and posting gets better results - emails are easier to ignore but letters can get noticed these days.

[sewloud.livejournal.com]

Yes, I have real resume paper and everything.

[(Anonymous)]

Hang tough lady. If you can get out and go for a walk or bike ride. AND YES COUNT SHOWERS, GETTING OUT OF BED, DRINKING A GLASS OF WATER AS AN ACCOMPLISHMENT.

[sewloud.livejournal.com]

Thanks. I'm determined to get myself back in the habit of going to the gym. I think it will help a lot.

[fiofiorina.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[sewloud.livejournal.com]

thanks

who am i

[(Anonymous)]

Hello Robin,
You do not know me. I tripped over your blog while googling belvidere days in NJ. I do not blog myself, I hope you don't mind the comment.
I have 2 friends that are very active in our community. One woman is very active in her church, choir director, youth group leader, women's group leader, she also is very active with her children, PTA, soccer mom and such. The other woman is active with the local government, the food bank, the historical society, the library, and more. If you ask anyone in our community 'what do you know about these women?' not one would mention their job. The first woman is a school bus driver and the second cleans office buildings. They live the lives they want and their jobs give them the money to keep a roof over their head, clothes on their back, and food on the table.
I guess my point is that you do not need to let your 'job' define who you are, let 'you' define who you are and what you want to do with your life.
You seem to be caught up in this 'I need a career'. Everyone is quoting Steve Jobs these days so I guess I will too. Do what you love, the money will come. (from somewhere) OK that part is my quote.
I hope this helps.
Martha

Re: who am i

[sewloud.livejournal.com]

Thanks :-) It's not that I want a fortune 500 job. I want to stop living on the brink of financial ruin. The stress is ridiculous, I want a regular schedule. I have a college degree I'm still paying off! The trick is my degree is a skill set I can no longer use, (costume construction + sever tendon problems = no go). So I think there's more education in my future. So I guess I want a career in the sense that I want financial security, and I want to be able to start a family. This damn BA better prove useful for something!

[jennil.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

And, I totally put "shower" on my daily to-do list, and "get dressed" and "eat breakfast" as well. It helps me get the day started, and I feel good seeing things done and crossed off, so I think there's nothing wrong with using that as a tool to get you going!