weariness bring heaviness

[robinsnest]

It never fails when I start to get that dizzy feeling of being tired I start to withdraw and the little things that wouldn't usually bother me start to dig a little deeper. I'm dissapointed I missed sean for dinner, i haven't really chatted with him in a while and he alwasy makes me laugh, but he never came back from "class..." ::shrug::
and I played pool with andy, it's funny every time I play pool I remember a time in my life when i felt so diffrent, when I felt lonely and when I felt like the world was fighting me. as much as i enjoy pool it certainly brings out my cynical side the side that thinks no guy sees more than nice legs and a cute ass, the side that thinks love doesn't exist that cynical voice that comes through in my sarcasim. it's funny how pool brings that back, something so simple that I've probably played many times before that period in my life, yet i seem to have stuck there.
like i said it's funny what exhaustion will do you youre mind...and your body