couped up

I'm so sick of being stuck in this damn house and looking this terrible and realizing that if i'm not out there pushing people to hang out with me no one wants to. I've been forgotten very quickly.

all this week the comic strip Luann has been running about wisdom teeth removal, which is cute because I got mine out a few days after she did, but now it's getting old because even luann has dorkly little gunther standing there making sure she's feeling better. I'm sitting at home alone. okay wait there is one saveing grace Amy and Megan who I don't even manage to see that often anymore brought me a milkshake my first night. It's funny who ends up showing they care in the end. It's never who you would have guessed. i'm sick of this town and knowing that all my "friends" are so damn self-obsessed and in their own little bubbles that they forget me this easily. You know I really miss school, work anything. even the dig site this morning said how much they would miss me and hwo much i brighten their days. okay they hardly know me. maybe the fact that I've been siting alone all day hurting is making me over emotional..okay so that's a given fact but it still really fucking hurts. my face and my heart. I just plain hurt.

couped up

I'm so sick of being stuck in this damn house and looking this terrible and realizing that if i'm not out there pushing people to hang out with me no one wants to. I've been forgotten very quickly.

all this week the comic strip Luann has been running about wisdom teeth removal, which is cute because I got mine out a few days after she did, but now it's getting old because even luann has dorkly little gunther standing there making sure she's feeling better. I'm sitting at home alone. okay wait there is one saveing grace Amy and Megan who I don't even manage to see that often anymore brought me a milkshake my first night. It's funny who ends up showing they care in the end. It's never who you would have guessed. i'm sick of this town and knowing that all my "friends" are so damn self-obsessed and in their own little bubbles that they forget me this easily. You know I really miss school, work anything. even the dig site this morning said how much they would miss me and hwo much i brighten their days. okay they hardly know me. maybe the fact that I've been siting alone all day hurting is making me over emotional..okay so that's a given fact but it still really fucking hurts. my face and my heart. I just plain hurt.