thoughts while cuddled with a frog

Today has been a day that has made me think a lot. Especially about the past few years.

so...

Mike left me a comment on myspace, two years ago today we cut our hair for locks of love, we would almost have dated for two years, in a few days, if we were still together. It still burns a little to think about hearing his voice say "i just don't love you anymore" love is such a fickle concept sometimes.

interestingly tonight was also a dateline of the Porco murder/trial. Rob watched it with me holding my hand. I remember two years ago devestated clutching mike while I cried, at KDR in the the pool room. It was when he first tole me he loved me, at the door to phil's kitchen. Sometimes I miss the stability of a long term relationship where someone loved me. Rob is wonderful but our relationship is still growing. perhaps someday.

It makes the tears just well up in my eyes to even think about my parents being murdered. what would I do without them. they are my rock, they are my stability, they are my family.

recently i've discovered myspace, it's a funny place. I was bored this afternoon and went looking through old BCHS people. it's funny how many of them i don't recognize, and those that i do, just how much they've changed. who got married, who's had babies, who's clearly had plastic surgery. five years really changes a lot. Hell five months changes a lot. I've been here almost five months and it's funny how easily you get settled.

thoughts while cuddled with a frog

Today has been a day that has made me think a lot. Especially about the past few years.

so...

Mike left me a comment on myspace, two years ago today we cut our hair for locks of love, we would almost have dated for two years, in a few days, if we were still together. It still burns a little to think about hearing his voice say "i just don't love you anymore" love is such a fickle concept sometimes.

interestingly tonight was also a dateline of the Porco murder/trial. Rob watched it with me holding my hand. I remember two years ago devestated clutching mike while I cried, at KDR in the the pool room. It was when he first tole me he loved me, at the door to phil's kitchen. Sometimes I miss the stability of a long term relationship where someone loved me. Rob is wonderful but our relationship is still growing. perhaps someday.

It makes the tears just well up in my eyes to even think about my parents being murdered. what would I do without them. they are my rock, they are my stability, they are my family.

recently i've discovered myspace, it's a funny place. I was bored this afternoon and went looking through old BCHS people. it's funny how many of them i don't recognize, and those that i do, just how much they've changed. who got married, who's had babies, who's clearly had plastic surgery. five years really changes a lot. Hell five months changes a lot. I've been here almost five months and it's funny how easily you get settled.