trying to move forward

[robinsnest]

Trying to focus on the now and not the horrible doom and gloom I feel like is looming just off the horizen. The worst part is I feel like he has tainted my beloved Orange. Orange is a color of happy.

Anyway mandie_rw very graciously let us invade for a sewing day (might have been more gracious of her Mom). I went with a billion little pieces of Rob's pants and came out with almost completely finished fronts. I got the fall pieces all bound, lined and sewn together. Did break my brain a little though...Must remember when I blog about this pattern to include the very helpful tip for myself in the future that there WILL be a gab between the bottom of the slit and the front waistband extension, it's okay it gets bound with the fall binding! I stressed waaaaaay too much about that. Overall they're very obnoxious and plaid.

I need to try and get myself to work on them more this week...but tonight I'm gonna knit. 12 hour days just wipe me out.

Oh and I had a nice facetime with my Mom tonight, she heads back to Ohio tomorrow to be 24 hour care for Gramps. It's not a pretty thing and I feel deep sadness that a man who so adamantly did not want to be anything but independant is wasting away...Probably not helping my over all feeling of impending doom. For all that I'm already mourning his passing and know it's coming I also realize it's going to completely blindside me.

(Look Amanda I tagged things)

Comments

[mandie-rw.livejournal.com]

Oooh, you're right, he's trying to co-opt orange! What a fucknugget. WE WILL NOT LET THIS HAPPEN. And I'm sorry about your grandpa...that's rough for all of you. *hugs*

But hey! Tags are good things! You get a cookie!

[brickhousewench.livejournal.com]

We're all struggling right now. Not that it helps much to know that you're not alone.

[koshka-the-cat.livejournal.com]

I have been mad about orange for you. One of the things I wanted him to lose for!

I am not making that up :)