coming home

Well It's 4am and here I am just home from jose's room, now the thing that's odd about this isn't that I was there till 4, what's odd is that I came home period. We've ended up crashing in one another's rooms 5 out of the past 7 nights so when I fell alseep in the middle of moulin rouge I suppose it'd be only natural for me to sleep there especially given the great need I've been experiencing tonight for comfort. He basically told me on the phone when he heard me crying that I had no choice but to come over, and I'm glad I did I love hanging out with his friends and a hug from him was exactly what I needed.
So why did I leave, well I just needed too. It was increadibly hot to begin with, then when I woke up and realized I missed the end of the movie and that everyone was gone I reached over and tried to cuddle with him to kiss him, I wanted to feel held and safe and stuff, but he was already asleep cluttching a pillow and somehow not in the mood to wake up...not that I blame him given it was 3:30am. But I really didn't feel like laying in a hot room wishing the person I was with was holding me and not a pillow. so i got up, jose tried to get me to stay in the other bed (he has no roommate, lucky got a double all to himself) but if i'm going to be sleeping alone i want to sleep in MY bed with MY frog and MY open window. my room happens to be a complete mess today from trying on clothing for freshman party, most of which I didn't even go to. go figure.

Sio, Brian and Karen stopped by on their way out to fredonia to see Steph tonight and it was an amazging breath of home, probably part of the reason I finally had to cry this evening. I hadn't realize how much I was missing home and my friends there. I love it here, but I'd kill to have a weekend to hang out with Amy, Chris, Sio, Brian, Karen, Amy B. I'm not going home untill after midterms, and that seems really far away..

coming home

Well It's 4am and here I am just home from jose's room, now the thing that's odd about this isn't that I was there till 4, what's odd is that I came home period. We've ended up crashing in one another's rooms 5 out of the past 7 nights so when I fell alseep in the middle of moulin rouge I suppose it'd be only natural for me to sleep there especially given the great need I've been experiencing tonight for comfort. He basically told me on the phone when he heard me crying that I had no choice but to come over, and I'm glad I did I love hanging out with his friends and a hug from him was exactly what I needed.
So why did I leave, well I just needed too. It was increadibly hot to begin with, then when I woke up and realized I missed the end of the movie and that everyone was gone I reached over and tried to cuddle with him to kiss him, I wanted to feel held and safe and stuff, but he was already asleep cluttching a pillow and somehow not in the mood to wake up...not that I blame him given it was 3:30am. But I really didn't feel like laying in a hot room wishing the person I was with was holding me and not a pillow. so i got up, jose tried to get me to stay in the other bed (he has no roommate, lucky got a double all to himself) but if i'm going to be sleeping alone i want to sleep in MY bed with MY frog and MY open window. my room happens to be a complete mess today from trying on clothing for freshman party, most of which I didn't even go to. go figure.

Sio, Brian and Karen stopped by on their way out to fredonia to see Steph tonight and it was an amazging breath of home, probably part of the reason I finally had to cry this evening. I hadn't realize how much I was missing home and my friends there. I love it here, but I'd kill to have a weekend to hang out with Amy, Chris, Sio, Brian, Karen, Amy B. I'm not going home untill after midterms, and that seems really far away..