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warning, this will be long an rambly
Feb. 19th, 2006 02:54 amI have lots of thoughts I'd like to spew forth...
...What's the "G" stand for in super g?
...I'm enjoying my night off with a whole bowl of popcorn to myself and a dr pepper and the olympics
...I'm not good at dissociating. I realized this today while listening to the show. I don't want to ruin the play but I don't think anyone is planning to see it, Ester the main character gives her heart and her life savings to a man who in the end doesn't even say thank you, takes it an runs. When she says the line "The Gentleman would have thanked me" I share her devestation and feel like I've gotten a knife in the gut. I love theater BECAUSE it elicites emotions, but when it's a sad play about the heartbreak that comes from loving someone who doesn't value you/isn't honest with you and I experience that EVERY night. and then I send mike a valentine's present he doesn't like, try again and he doesn't even tell me they arrived! He never said thank you. and that just resonates too damn much with this current play. I'm not saying i think mike doesn't love me or anything, just makes me feel like I've been kicked in the gut. and really hurt actually. At the end of this depressing show what i want is someone to tell me they love me and care about me etc and I don't generally get that. Mike's usually asleep by the time I'm home at midnight. As I would be if I had class at seven am.
...Amy has the hots for the cute box office boy (as I've knick named him) so we went and hit on him for a while, got him number. probably scared the crap out of him, he's a really shy quiet guy. although the quiet shy one I'm in love with is a marvelous cuddler. I wish her the same luck
...I wish I knew more about the future. It's hard to make choices without knowing all the facts
...I want to be held.
...I watched biathalon today and I'm craving going cross country skiing but when I called and asked mom to go with me she said all the snow was gone!
...I'm almost out of popcorn :-(
...What's the "G" stand for in super g?
...I'm enjoying my night off with a whole bowl of popcorn to myself and a dr pepper and the olympics
...I'm not good at dissociating. I realized this today while listening to the show. I don't want to ruin the play but I don't think anyone is planning to see it, Ester the main character gives her heart and her life savings to a man who in the end doesn't even say thank you, takes it an runs. When she says the line "The Gentleman would have thanked me" I share her devestation and feel like I've gotten a knife in the gut. I love theater BECAUSE it elicites emotions, but when it's a sad play about the heartbreak that comes from loving someone who doesn't value you/isn't honest with you and I experience that EVERY night. and then I send mike a valentine's present he doesn't like, try again and he doesn't even tell me they arrived! He never said thank you. and that just resonates too damn much with this current play. I'm not saying i think mike doesn't love me or anything, just makes me feel like I've been kicked in the gut. and really hurt actually. At the end of this depressing show what i want is someone to tell me they love me and care about me etc and I don't generally get that. Mike's usually asleep by the time I'm home at midnight. As I would be if I had class at seven am.
...Amy has the hots for the cute box office boy (as I've knick named him) so we went and hit on him for a while, got him number. probably scared the crap out of him, he's a really shy quiet guy. although the quiet shy one I'm in love with is a marvelous cuddler. I wish her the same luck
...I wish I knew more about the future. It's hard to make choices without knowing all the facts
...I want to be held.
...I watched biathalon today and I'm craving going cross country skiing but when I called and asked mom to go with me she said all the snow was gone!
...I'm almost out of popcorn :-(
