robinsnest | Dec. 4th, 2010

I'm in a very blah mood tonight. I've convinced myself no one is coming to the Victorian Salon tomorow, and that we'll have put all this effort in and no one will show. I have this mental of image of us just sitting there watching time tick slowly away. And on top of that I have zero for Rob to wear and he doesn't want to go and sit there in jeans and feel stupid. Which means no company on the drive. I know the reason I feel like crap is that I've been sick and I'm pretty sure I'm still massively deyhdrated which explains the migraine and the dizzy feeling. But that does not contribute to a general appreciation of the state of me.

AND I don't think I have a hat :-( I just feel like lying on the couch in a ball grumpy. I know tomorrow I'll wake up feeling loads and loads better, hell I'll probably feel better after I eat. But at the moment anxiety is getting to me. I can't find my bobby pins, I still have ornaments to paint (although why worry about an ornament give-away if no one shows up to get them), and I seem to be very whiney right now! Someone come shake some sense into me please, for poor Rob's sake!

I just so want to succeed. And it feels like this was my first assignment, and if no one shows up...then I failed. It didn't even occur to me to contact the local press until 2pm today. I'm not good at failure. I don't like it (athough really who does) some people are better at looking at things as opportunities. I need to work on that.

Humbug.

Maybe making cookies will make me feel better.