ponderings while having a snack break
Sep. 10th, 2010 11:07 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
robinsnestAs I sit here debating resetting my sleeves for the third time I'm thinking about WHY I do this.
Supposedly it's for fun. But it's easy to lose sight of that. My OCD makes it so all I see is the flaws. Do I want people to think I'm skilled? Of course. But my Social anxiety makes me in a panic that people will judge the fullness distribution on my sleeves. Maybe I could just put a giant pink bow on it so that everyone would be distracted in a diffrent direction. Meeting new costume people makes me so nervous. I don't know why I assume everyone is instantly going to judge me by my outfit, especially since no one I actually KNOW does, but you know that's how irrational thoughts work.
But on the plus side IF I don't reset my sleeves then all I have to do is hooks and eyes and it's wearable, then I need a collar, cuffs, and decorative buttons.
I would normally go to bed and get up in the morning but Rob's ona shoot and won't be home till one and I want to wait up for him.
Supposedly it's for fun. But it's easy to lose sight of that. My OCD makes it so all I see is the flaws. Do I want people to think I'm skilled? Of course. But my Social anxiety makes me in a panic that people will judge the fullness distribution on my sleeves. Maybe I could just put a giant pink bow on it so that everyone would be distracted in a diffrent direction. Meeting new costume people makes me so nervous. I don't know why I assume everyone is instantly going to judge me by my outfit, especially since no one I actually KNOW does, but you know that's how irrational thoughts work.
But on the plus side IF I don't reset my sleeves then all I have to do is hooks and eyes and it's wearable, then I need a collar, cuffs, and decorative buttons.
I would normally go to bed and get up in the morning but Rob's ona shoot and won't be home till one and I want to wait up for him.
