robinsnest | for every up there must be a down.

Have you ever stopped to look back and just had to cry. I've gotten to the point where I don't miss high school but I miss people. I was reading my friend Chrissy's live journal..and she talked about her "bestest friend" and I know how much she and I have drifted, I wouldn't call her my best friend so it suprised me how much it hurt really read in writing that my past was really the past. I feel like i've lost so many people that were so amazing and that I swore I'd never lose. I remember when chrissy graduated and I sat with her family and we went to pizza hut and build a house out of menus. I think my fear in life is that people forget me, or that I lose them. I hardly talk to Kate and she was one of the most wonderful people I ever met.
and of course there's my more than minor annoyance at not getting to give blood, and my so called friends.
i think it could be time for that road trip because i need to get out of here!!!
and on top of all of it it's a fat day...life hates me