for every up there must be a down.

[robinsnest]

Have you ever stopped to look back and just had to cry. I've gotten to the point where I don't miss high school but I miss people. I was reading my friend Chrissy's live journal..and she talked about her "bestest friend" and I know how much she and I have drifted, I wouldn't call her my best friend so it suprised me how much it hurt really read in writing that my past was really the past. I feel like i've lost so many people that were so amazing and that I swore I'd never lose. I remember when chrissy graduated and I sat with her family and we went to pizza hut and build a house out of menus. I think my fear in life is that people forget me, or that I lose them. I hardly talk to Kate and she was one of the most wonderful people I ever met.
and of course there's my more than minor annoyance at not getting to give blood, and my so called friends.
i think it could be time for that road trip because i need to get out of here!!!
and on top of all of it it's a fat day...life hates me

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[(Anonymous)]

Hey Robin...funny reading this since it seems you and I have not talked for a long time as well. Its hard tho, people change and whatnot and you can't help but wonder if its you or the other people who wont talk or call, the closest ppl from high school who won't IM you, just to even say hi. I know I try to keep up realtionships that way and I can't hlep but think that I am not the wanted friend anymore when they don't refund the "favor". So, I try keeping things as they were and accept that maybe not everyone lasts forever.
Therefore, I say, treasure what you are gaining, and what was. Those memories and good times are not erased ever. Sad as it is, I guess its always time to move on and develop more. Real true friends last, others were just there at the right time. Sounds harsh, but i like to think of friends accumulating..ones from grade/middle school..high school...college..and thereafter. BE thankful for knowing so many people, even if its only for a short time.
Cya soon, Jil