In a cave many miles to the south...

[robinsnest]

I think I know what I need to get myself out of this rut. And I'm going to take the necessary steps to reach that goal. Thank you to everyone who's been helpful for me. I need to stop letting myself care so much sometimes. I just want to make people's pain go away so bad, I want to be someone they can say "she saved me" but that's not my place, I am no one's angel anymore than I am their devil. So I'm going to force myself to let go. and move on. I have PLENTY to keep myself busy with.

I need chris. I really need a chris hug and a night of chris' conversation. I always feel like the rest of the world doesnt' matter when I talk to that boy. sometimes I think if he didn't have Joy I'd have fallen seriously in love with him, I suppose it's lucky I have no since he doesn't feel that way towards me. I guess there are some blessings in life. but I still miss chris...::sigh:: I miss home tonight.

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[(Anonymous)]

if only you knew ... but you won't ever actually know ... i've come to realize how much of a burden i actually am, and i'm sorry ... so i will stop bothering you ... and everyone else ...