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robinsnestThere are so many thoughts spinning through my head this morning that I'm suprised I managed to stop thinking to sleep for my five hours, here's a rough run down....earnest opens on thursday, gotta finish that wig....meeting my to+m group to work on our final project...i feel behind in it already....gotta work on Arcadia....Mom's coming on tuesday! whee...
This has been a week of realizing that no matter how much my life changes, no matter how much I change some things will always be the same. example 1) Wiley's coming to visit, I'm really excited that kid always makes me laugh. but talking with him we're exactly the same, it's like three years of growing and I'm back in highschool talking to the boy with who I played the biggest game of lust and love. It's a comfort to me to realize I can still return to that place where I had more faith in life than I did in myself. as much as no I feel like now I have far more faith in myself than I do in life. go figure. 2) I talked to Howie for the first time in like maybe 6 months last night. We're both so diffrent. I'm no longer an insecure little girl and he's had his heart broken, well at least bruised, and changed his major a few times. beyond that I don't know how much he's changed, we didn't talk enough for me to really know. but again, as two diffrent people, our conversations were so similar. High school was a life time ago to me, I was a diffrent person in a diffrent life, and every now and again it's nice to remember that girl. The girl who believed that love would find her, that everything was okay in the end, the girl who thought she could learn anything, do anything, the girl who thought she could save people, enrich people, love people. Innocence is one of those things that when you lose it it's gone. i would never want to go back, but i would NEVER want to forget.
This has been a week of realizing that no matter how much my life changes, no matter how much I change some things will always be the same. example 1) Wiley's coming to visit, I'm really excited that kid always makes me laugh. but talking with him we're exactly the same, it's like three years of growing and I'm back in highschool talking to the boy with who I played the biggest game of lust and love. It's a comfort to me to realize I can still return to that place where I had more faith in life than I did in myself. as much as no I feel like now I have far more faith in myself than I do in life. go figure. 2) I talked to Howie for the first time in like maybe 6 months last night. We're both so diffrent. I'm no longer an insecure little girl and he's had his heart broken, well at least bruised, and changed his major a few times. beyond that I don't know how much he's changed, we didn't talk enough for me to really know. but again, as two diffrent people, our conversations were so similar. High school was a life time ago to me, I was a diffrent person in a diffrent life, and every now and again it's nice to remember that girl. The girl who believed that love would find her, that everything was okay in the end, the girl who thought she could learn anything, do anything, the girl who thought she could save people, enrich people, love people. Innocence is one of those things that when you lose it it's gone. i would never want to go back, but i would NEVER want to forget.
