it's raining it's pouring i wish i was snoring

[robinsnest]

so the end is in sight...and i wish i could say i was really excited about it, but i'm not. I'm so happy here, and so independant, and so me. i'm almost not looking forward to going home, there are so many people i won't see all year while i'm in london, and even those going to london with me i'll won't see for three months!!! totally stinky. no one's really pulling for me to be home, so it's hard to get excited about it. i haven't talked to chris in forever, and i wonder if i'll even see him when i'm home or if he'll be too busy with joy to notice i'm home. Amy will be there but i'm not sure i'll even get hours at big so i won't see john, and well wes quit. it saddens me to realize how much my ties to my friends at home are weakening. in a way i almost want to stay at college because i don't feel the pressures to be who i was in high school because i'm not at all that girl anymore. i'm so independant now, and so confident. i go home and feel like i should be shy and uncertain again. ::sigh:: even my mom doesn't seem excited i'm coming home. but i can't even take solace here becasue everyone seems like they're just itching to leave here. lexi nicely told me she'd miss me...halfway through her next semester...gee thanks. love you too. :-(

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[(Anonymous)]

i always miss you...