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My dad says I'm "made for college life" and i think he's right. I crave being busy, I crave lots and lots of people, people growing and learnign workign hard. not people in senior bubbles or people who abuse friendships for dresses, or people who well just i don't see.
boredom is my greatest advesary it tears me apart before i even realize i'm spiraling. i need to work my mind, i need to feel that thrill of the unexpected. I miss friends just randomly showing up at my door to say hi.
I realized today that someone that I always thought of as a friend wasn't who i thougth he was. He used to be the sweetest boy i knew, kind, quiet, cute. last night he made friendship take a back seat to his ego. and i'm not the only person who sees what an egotiscial asshole he has become. I cry for the person who i can't seem to find. but now i'm done. I don't have the patience to sit here and look for him. he's fucked me over, he's gone. i'm done. i wont' take shit from people anymore. perhaps i'd rather be alone then with people like that. friends come before egos. friends listen out of respect, they don't say it's your fault before you get a word in. friends arent' assholes.

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My dad says I'm "made for college life" and i think he's right. I crave being busy, I crave lots and lots of people, people growing and learnign workign hard. not people in senior bubbles or people who abuse friendships for dresses, or people who well just i don't see.
boredom is my greatest advesary it tears me apart before i even realize i'm spiraling. i need to work my mind, i need to feel that thrill of the unexpected. I miss friends just randomly showing up at my door to say hi.
I realized today that someone that I always thought of as a friend wasn't who i thougth he was. He used to be the sweetest boy i knew, kind, quiet, cute. last night he made friendship take a back seat to his ego. and i'm not the only person who sees what an egotiscial asshole he has become. I cry for the person who i can't seem to find. but now i'm done. I don't have the patience to sit here and look for him. he's fucked me over, he's gone. i'm done. i wont' take shit from people anymore. perhaps i'd rather be alone then with people like that. friends come before egos. friends listen out of respect, they don't say it's your fault before you get a word in. friends arent' assholes.