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it's raining...
Aug. 24th, 2002 05:08 pmIt's raining and that certainly seems to be fitting the mood today, kinda subdude. Lately all my journal entries seem to be rather melancholy and nostaligic, which seems to be the way I've been feeling lately. This summer has been so full I did an amazing amount of stuff, building a prom dress from scratch, working at an archeological dig, working for the town, hooking up with three of four ex boyfriends, mind you never within the same month (man i need NEW intrests), getting my drivers license, going to TWO renaissance festivals...this summer has been a trip down memory lane.
I realized this morning that Last year it was hard to leave bethlehem because college was a great unknown. but by the time i left I was dying to get away from the friends I had here and explore something else, I seemed to be hanging out with a completely diffrent group. this year I'm really going to miss friends much much more. I realized this summer how time can really run away and when you think you have forever you don't. I visited Dana's grave on thursday and it was a major reminder of how short everything we have is. I could be dead on the highway on my way to school monday. perhaphs that is why I feel so sad leaving I don't really know if I'll ever see these people again. Amy, Amy, megan, kevin, brian, sio, chris, karen, howie we could part ways today and never cross paths again. I certainly hope that doesn't happen and I feel like we're all going to try to prevent that happening but who really knows. It used to bother me to know I had so much history with these people, but now it gives me a sense of peace. Amy knows EVERYTHING that goes on in my life and i don't have to constantly explain who "so and so" is, friends like that are priceless. I don't know how many of my friends actually ever read this journal but i TREASURE all of you. I'm so lucky to have these amazing people around me. You make me laugh when I do something stupid, and Smile through my tears, you bring me hope for my future. I know with friends like all of you I will never actually be alone no matter how lonely I feel.
In the next few days everyone will head in diffrent directions. I'll be in Ithaca, Kevin in cornell, Amy D. will be starting a new year at HVCC with chris this year, Amy B. is already at oneonta (i'm not sure how the hell to spell that one) Howie and Corey head to plattsburg tomorrow, Brian Karen and Sio will be here terrorizing the town while I'm away :-( But I think it really says somethign that through all the shit we've been we're all still friends. I've had lots of friends who've hung around for maybe a year and departed, I've had friends who didn't even stay that long, and you've all been here through so much. Everyone's bad boyfriends and breakups, our proms, our fights our struggles and our delights. You've been with me when I thought life wasn't worth living and now when I'm treasuring every second I have left. Last night I didn't watn to go to sleep becasue when I did I felt like one amazing summer would be over, for that I'm so sad but I plan on trying extra hard to stay in touch with everyone and visit people and make people visit me (single room!) but just incase I never manage to talk to you again I LOVE YOU!!
I realized this morning that Last year it was hard to leave bethlehem because college was a great unknown. but by the time i left I was dying to get away from the friends I had here and explore something else, I seemed to be hanging out with a completely diffrent group. this year I'm really going to miss friends much much more. I realized this summer how time can really run away and when you think you have forever you don't. I visited Dana's grave on thursday and it was a major reminder of how short everything we have is. I could be dead on the highway on my way to school monday. perhaphs that is why I feel so sad leaving I don't really know if I'll ever see these people again. Amy, Amy, megan, kevin, brian, sio, chris, karen, howie we could part ways today and never cross paths again. I certainly hope that doesn't happen and I feel like we're all going to try to prevent that happening but who really knows. It used to bother me to know I had so much history with these people, but now it gives me a sense of peace. Amy knows EVERYTHING that goes on in my life and i don't have to constantly explain who "so and so" is, friends like that are priceless. I don't know how many of my friends actually ever read this journal but i TREASURE all of you. I'm so lucky to have these amazing people around me. You make me laugh when I do something stupid, and Smile through my tears, you bring me hope for my future. I know with friends like all of you I will never actually be alone no matter how lonely I feel.
In the next few days everyone will head in diffrent directions. I'll be in Ithaca, Kevin in cornell, Amy D. will be starting a new year at HVCC with chris this year, Amy B. is already at oneonta (i'm not sure how the hell to spell that one) Howie and Corey head to plattsburg tomorrow, Brian Karen and Sio will be here terrorizing the town while I'm away :-( But I think it really says somethign that through all the shit we've been we're all still friends. I've had lots of friends who've hung around for maybe a year and departed, I've had friends who didn't even stay that long, and you've all been here through so much. Everyone's bad boyfriends and breakups, our proms, our fights our struggles and our delights. You've been with me when I thought life wasn't worth living and now when I'm treasuring every second I have left. Last night I didn't watn to go to sleep becasue when I did I felt like one amazing summer would be over, for that I'm so sad but I plan on trying extra hard to stay in touch with everyone and visit people and make people visit me (single room!) but just incase I never manage to talk to you again I LOVE YOU!!
