random thoughts

A few random things that have been on my mind.

Reading over everyone's live journals (and i realise they are people's own journals) i'm struck by how much they are about what people want and a lot of grumbling about not getting what they want. Now i'm just as guilty if not more of this than everyone else. But i think it's a strong argument for why america is known as being an increadibly self-centered country. WE ARE incraedibly self absorbed. My problems, my relationships, my my my. While i'd love to pretend that I was focusing my energy on doing things that would be really useful I tend to fall into the usual pattern...have a relatoionship...have it not work...whine and analyze...repeat...mix in a few tramatizing events for spice :-) I was talking to jen this morning about how close congress is to declaring war on Iraq and I think it's closer than most of us realize. No one had done SHIT on this campus to even make people aware of it. Hell I was expecting a fucking peace rally or something! If we go to war with Iraq we're setting ourselves up for our generation's Vietam war...and who really wants that? now there's something to be concerned about. if you step back and look at it from that angle who cares who's sleeping with who or not talking to who or upset with who. In the end it really doesn't matter does it. I suppose part of this thought train of mine stems from Laramie and how every night I sit and listen to real interviews and listen to how people hate, and don't even realize they do. they think just becasue they say "i don't think it's okay but i wouldn't kill him" they don't hate or have prejudice or bias. It hurts me to realize that even some people I would consider near and dear have prejudices that I don't think they're will to face at all.

When I left high school for college I thought I'd enter a whole new world where people were here to Learn becasue the WANT to. I think i must be weird because i want to understand everything know how it works. caluculous to biology I want to know how it works. More and more I find people here are high schoolers with more access to alochol and no parental supervision. This depresses me because I thought we came here to learn how to make our world better, not have a great big party for four years.

random thoughts

A few random things that have been on my mind.

Reading over everyone's live journals (and i realise they are people's own journals) i'm struck by how much they are about what people want and a lot of grumbling about not getting what they want. Now i'm just as guilty if not more of this than everyone else. But i think it's a strong argument for why america is known as being an increadibly self-centered country. WE ARE incraedibly self absorbed. My problems, my relationships, my my my. While i'd love to pretend that I was focusing my energy on doing things that would be really useful I tend to fall into the usual pattern...have a relatoionship...have it not work...whine and analyze...repeat...mix in a few tramatizing events for spice :-) I was talking to jen this morning about how close congress is to declaring war on Iraq and I think it's closer than most of us realize. No one had done SHIT on this campus to even make people aware of it. Hell I was expecting a fucking peace rally or something! If we go to war with Iraq we're setting ourselves up for our generation's Vietam war...and who really wants that? now there's something to be concerned about. if you step back and look at it from that angle who cares who's sleeping with who or not talking to who or upset with who. In the end it really doesn't matter does it. I suppose part of this thought train of mine stems from Laramie and how every night I sit and listen to real interviews and listen to how people hate, and don't even realize they do. they think just becasue they say "i don't think it's okay but i wouldn't kill him" they don't hate or have prejudice or bias. It hurts me to realize that even some people I would consider near and dear have prejudices that I don't think they're will to face at all.

When I left high school for college I thought I'd enter a whole new world where people were here to Learn becasue the WANT to. I think i must be weird because i want to understand everything know how it works. caluculous to biology I want to know how it works. More and more I find people here are high schoolers with more access to alochol and no parental supervision. This depresses me because I thought we came here to learn how to make our world better, not have a great big party for four years.