ahhh college

so last night was a rather long night. I'd just for a minute like to appreciate the contrast of my two saturday nights, both probably the two lastest nights i've stayed out in ages. last week I was up till seven with a great guy talking, cuddling, kissing, having the time of my life and wishing it would last forever.
tonight I got back from hanging out with lexi, moosh, josh and brian tired, a little dissapointed cause I was hoping to recapture last week and I get an IM from schmitty...he's WAY drunk to the point of being unsafe. so i im lexi and she's my guardian angle and comes down with me as I switch into "mommy mode" i suppose looking back vomit shouldn't bother me, i got puked on by ashton this summer...granted he was a sick kid and it was grape yogurt. anyway so I switch into mommy mode, holding heads, getting water etc. we pop in a movie and I patiently think over and over "when will this night be over!" I'd just like to point out the contrast between those two evenings. I suppose that is the nature of college. we take risks, we make mistakes and sometimes they work out wonderfully, and sometimes they wind up on the floo

ahhh college

so last night was a rather long night. I'd just for a minute like to appreciate the contrast of my two saturday nights, both probably the two lastest nights i've stayed out in ages. last week I was up till seven with a great guy talking, cuddling, kissing, having the time of my life and wishing it would last forever.
tonight I got back from hanging out with lexi, moosh, josh and brian tired, a little dissapointed cause I was hoping to recapture last week and I get an IM from schmitty...he's WAY drunk to the point of being unsafe. so i im lexi and she's my guardian angle and comes down with me as I switch into "mommy mode" i suppose looking back vomit shouldn't bother me, i got puked on by ashton this summer...granted he was a sick kid and it was grape yogurt. anyway so I switch into mommy mode, holding heads, getting water etc. we pop in a movie and I patiently think over and over "when will this night be over!" I'd just like to point out the contrast between those two evenings. I suppose that is the nature of college. we take risks, we make mistakes and sometimes they work out wonderfully, and sometimes they wind up on the floo

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Here I stand alone
With this weight upon my heart
And it will not go away
In my head I keep on looking back
Right back to the start
Wondering what it was that made you change

Well I tried
But I had to draw the line
And still this question keeps on spinning in my mind

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know

Many roads to take
Some to joy
Some to heart-ache
Anyone can lose their way
And if I said that we could turn it back
Right back to the start
Would you take the chance and make the change

Do you think how it would have been sometimes
Do you pray that I'd never left your side

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know

If only we could turn the hands of time
If I could take you back would you still be mine

'Cos I tried
But I had to draw the line
And still this question keep on spinning in my mind

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
What if I had never walked away
'Cos I still love you more than I can say
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know
We'll never know



I saw a dance routine to this at the IC unbound show today and it made me cry, so many times in my life i've asked these questions. it's a really beautiful song.

(no subject)

Here I stand alone
With this weight upon my heart
And it will not go away
In my head I keep on looking back
Right back to the start
Wondering what it was that made you change

Well I tried
But I had to draw the line
And still this question keeps on spinning in my mind

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know

Many roads to take
Some to joy
Some to heart-ache
Anyone can lose their way
And if I said that we could turn it back
Right back to the start
Would you take the chance and make the change

Do you think how it would have been sometimes
Do you pray that I'd never left your side

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know

If only we could turn the hands of time
If I could take you back would you still be mine

'Cos I tried
But I had to draw the line
And still this question keep on spinning in my mind

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
What if I had never walked away
'Cos I still love you more than I can say
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know
We'll never know



I saw a dance routine to this at the IC unbound show today and it made me cry, so many times in my life i've asked these questions. it's a really beautiful song.