an exciting day reaches a screatching halt

So i woke up at 8 drove mom into work, finished my pink blouse in time to meet mom for an 11:45 lunch date. then it was errands a very pleasant visit to the high school. every time i visit that place I realize how much I've grown.

it's always the evenings that kill me, well it seems to be a pattern in the past few days so i shouldn't say always. I have an action packed day and i'm now left alone, bored out of my mind, and with no car, and this is when I miss ithaca s painfully much. not that there'd be something to do then, but now i have time to think about stuff I miss.

I tired to work on my new dress, you know focus my energy...end up burning my finger on the iron...lovely...

::sigh:: what happened, I used to have so many friends I had to choose what to do, oh yeah I left. don't get me wrong I'm glad of the growth i'm just bored out of my mind now...

really really bored...

an exciting day reaches a screatching halt

So i woke up at 8 drove mom into work, finished my pink blouse in time to meet mom for an 11:45 lunch date. then it was errands a very pleasant visit to the high school. every time i visit that place I realize how much I've grown.

it's always the evenings that kill me, well it seems to be a pattern in the past few days so i shouldn't say always. I have an action packed day and i'm now left alone, bored out of my mind, and with no car, and this is when I miss ithaca s painfully much. not that there'd be something to do then, but now i have time to think about stuff I miss.

I tired to work on my new dress, you know focus my energy...end up burning my finger on the iron...lovely...

::sigh:: what happened, I used to have so many friends I had to choose what to do, oh yeah I left. don't get me wrong I'm glad of the growth i'm just bored out of my mind now...

really really bored...

beware rant below

so yeah. I feel like shit. I'm sitting here wondering who gives a fuck that I'm even home. I've now officallyspent way to much time plopped on my ass in this house, alone! I need a car, and a road trip and a fucking adventure!!!! goddamn it I can't stand this anymore. who would give a shit if i disapeared would anyone notice??? ARGH and I've discovered what is my biggest pet peeve in life. when you're on the phone with someone and you know you have less than half their attention because they're busy flirting with the boy in the room with them. what a great mood booster if you're feeling crappy and alone to not be worth someones fullattention. lovely. I'm sitting here crying alone and hurt and for he lifeof me I can't think of one person who I can call for comfort. John's in a bad mood. wiley's probaly not going to care and no one else is online. and i'm just plain hurting.

beware rant below

so yeah. I feel like shit. I'm sitting here wondering who gives a fuck that I'm even home. I've now officallyspent way to much time plopped on my ass in this house, alone! I need a car, and a road trip and a fucking adventure!!!! goddamn it I can't stand this anymore. who would give a shit if i disapeared would anyone notice??? ARGH and I've discovered what is my biggest pet peeve in life. when you're on the phone with someone and you know you have less than half their attention because they're busy flirting with the boy in the room with them. what a great mood booster if you're feeling crappy and alone to not be worth someones fullattention. lovely. I'm sitting here crying alone and hurt and for he lifeof me I can't think of one person who I can call for comfort. John's in a bad mood. wiley's probaly not going to care and no one else is online. and i'm just plain hurting.