dis-sociated

[robinsnest]

It's a very odd day, I was pondering the other day how did I use to manage to not eat? how'd I do that, now I remember it's days like today, I haven't seen anyone really except at the shop and there we don't eat so no one was wondering if I had. I had a muffin for breakfast but I could have easily not had it, and I'm not sure if I'm going to go to dinner or just do some homework, I'm not really hungry...which is bad...it means i'm getting back into that patter. so i'll probably end up forcing myself to go, I doing that whole control of my life thing. and for some reason i feel very alone, which is werid because i don't at all when i'm at the shop there I feel like i'm someone who knows something and belongs there, but somehow that never carries over when I come back here and sit in this box of a room. Last night I was perfectly content just sitting with my guitar making music...well almost music lol...but tonight i really need to do something, or i'm going to start remembering that feeling of total isolation...and i don't really think spiraling there is a very good idea. nor is it a pleasant on

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[mnm1152002.livejournal.com]

Hun,
I don't know if you are talking about the feeling of losing control over your life, but the truth is, no matter how much you feel like you are losing control you really aren't. You are the one with the power over your life, and you need to just keep that in mind. And if you need me for ANYTHING I'm here.
Love ya hun *hugs*
~~*Meg*~~