a life full of changes
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robinsnestLots of things have changed in my life lately. Friends, jobs, school, becoming an aunt, the list goes on. And I've been taking a bit of a personal inventory. There are things I like about myself. I think I am empathetic, I think I am kind. I think I am loyal. I am creative, smart and I try. I do not want to discount the things I am proud that I have accomplished and worked for.
But there are things I think need work about myself. And this is the biggest. I suck at follow through. It's not intentional. I think it's a mix of having ADHD so I have the attention span of a goldfish and easily get wrapped passionately up in the newest thing, forgetting the thing I was LAST wrapped up in. It doesn't matter so much if my sewing pile is full of half finished projects, or if my cleaning abilities leave something to be desired. But I've been realizing lately it makes me a crappy friend sometimes. an example: I told a schoolmate I would email him something for an assignment he needed to do that night. But by the time I got home I had COMPLETELY forgotten and I didn't remember until I saw him in the morning. At which point I was a horrible flake and felt SO bad. Luckily he found it on his own and it was no harm no foul, but it's things like that I am becoming more and more aware that I do. I want to do everything so I say "SURE I'LL DO THAT" but then I either forget, get completely overwhelmed, or overcommitted and end up letting everyone down. I WANT to help everyone in every way. And I toss too many balls in the air and really need to work on my juggling. SO that being said, I'm working on it. I'm going to work on finishing what I started in all aspects. School has been an excellent structure. And I am trying to focus on doing things right, I will make no less than 3 muslin's for my 18th century dress. Don't let me get away with less.
And for those who I know I have flaked on. Which is pretty much everyone on here in some way or other (even if it's just never remembering to post about things! Especially those who helped me get to the francaise dinner and I NEVER posted about going?!?) I am so sorry for that. Here's to better things to come.
But there are things I think need work about myself. And this is the biggest. I suck at follow through. It's not intentional. I think it's a mix of having ADHD so I have the attention span of a goldfish and easily get wrapped passionately up in the newest thing, forgetting the thing I was LAST wrapped up in. It doesn't matter so much if my sewing pile is full of half finished projects, or if my cleaning abilities leave something to be desired. But I've been realizing lately it makes me a crappy friend sometimes. an example: I told a schoolmate I would email him something for an assignment he needed to do that night. But by the time I got home I had COMPLETELY forgotten and I didn't remember until I saw him in the morning. At which point I was a horrible flake and felt SO bad. Luckily he found it on his own and it was no harm no foul, but it's things like that I am becoming more and more aware that I do. I want to do everything so I say "SURE I'LL DO THAT" but then I either forget, get completely overwhelmed, or overcommitted and end up letting everyone down. I WANT to help everyone in every way. And I toss too many balls in the air and really need to work on my juggling. SO that being said, I'm working on it. I'm going to work on finishing what I started in all aspects. School has been an excellent structure. And I am trying to focus on doing things right, I will make no less than 3 muslin's for my 18th century dress. Don't let me get away with less.
And for those who I know I have flaked on. Which is pretty much everyone on here in some way or other (even if it's just never remembering to post about things! Especially those who helped me get to the francaise dinner and I NEVER posted about going?!?) I am so sorry for that. Here's to better things to come.
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Date: 2014-08-22 02:19 am (UTC)As for cleaning....I've given up hope and when I move, I'm hiring a maid. ;-p