lessons in life
Apr. 25th, 2002 12:50 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
robinsnestToday I woke up exhausted, one of those nights where I lost more energy in sleeping than in awakeness. My train of thought literally didn't stop, i woke up with the same thought I fell asleep with which is unusual. normally i'm given one moment of bliss before everything comes back. dreams, the day before whatever.
But as much as today has bad day written all over it I will not give in to it. I'm in a good mood. I won't let life mangle me anymore, it's MY life and i only get one so i might as well enjoy it. I think fucked up my friendship with sean, ::sigh:: it's so easy to be tired and say the wrong thing. but, I'm going to have to move on i guess. I don't beg people to be friends with me. we'll see what happens i guess.
My day is also going to be crazy busy and I'm getting less and less sleep. normally i just nap in the afternoon if I feel myself slipping, sleep has become a war with myself. how much can I deny myself my escape...but i have to do laundry today and home work and then rehearsal and then unwind from rehersal. i really hate how even though I get out at 12 i can never sleep before 1 or later. it's my last IC players show. no one's come to see it. but oh well there will be other shows. Do your art for yourself not for others.
But as much as today has bad day written all over it I will not give in to it. I'm in a good mood. I won't let life mangle me anymore, it's MY life and i only get one so i might as well enjoy it. I think fucked up my friendship with sean, ::sigh:: it's so easy to be tired and say the wrong thing. but, I'm going to have to move on i guess. I don't beg people to be friends with me. we'll see what happens i guess.
My day is also going to be crazy busy and I'm getting less and less sleep. normally i just nap in the afternoon if I feel myself slipping, sleep has become a war with myself. how much can I deny myself my escape...but i have to do laundry today and home work and then rehearsal and then unwind from rehersal. i really hate how even though I get out at 12 i can never sleep before 1 or later. it's my last IC players show. no one's come to see it. but oh well there will be other shows. Do your art for yourself not for others.
