so close and yet so far

[robinsnest]

Welp today was my last day of prep before the Georgian Picnic we're having on Saturday. Technically tomorrow is only Friday but I have a 12 hour work day and guests rolling in to meet me so really I'm done for. I had grand plans to finish the open robe I've been working on and clean the house...in the end I did half a tidy (at least it's not bad because we had people over Sunday) and got a finished bodice which does not an open robe make.

 

I was feeling really bad about failing at basically everything. And then I decided to just cut myself some slack. I'm working two jobs 50-60 hours a week, I am trying to hold it together financially and emotionally for a husband battling a chronic seriously mental illness and at the end of the day if my friends don't want to be friends with me because a bomb went off in my sewing room or I haven't dusted the TV cabinet in a month...so be it. I'm doing the best I can and sometimes that's just got to be good enough. Even though this is a UFO now at least I started the creative process. I haven't sewn anything since Rob got acutely sick. And I always forget how much sewing while it feels mechanical to me IS a creative process and I can't just turn it on whenever I want with no inspiration. So hopefully I'll finish this up next weekend and find somewhere to wear it sometime. Then I can start to think about my 1918 ensemble for August as I think that's the next event. And what this has taught me is I don't have the emotional energy I used to have to keep on chugging. I need to plan more time for it all...which isn't a strength of mine so someone help me remember that. :-p