so close and yet so far

[robinsnest]

Welp today was my last day of prep before the Georgian Picnic we're having on Saturday. Technically tomorrow is only Friday but I have a 12 hour work day and guests rolling in to meet me so really I'm done for. I had grand plans to finish the open robe I've been working on and clean the house...in the end I did half a tidy (at least it's not bad because we had people over Sunday) and got a finished bodice which does not an open robe make.

 

I was feeling really bad about failing at basically everything. And then I decided to just cut myself some slack. I'm working two jobs 50-60 hours a week, I am trying to hold it together financially and emotionally for a husband battling a chronic seriously mental illness and at the end of the day if my friends don't want to be friends with me because a bomb went off in my sewing room or I haven't dusted the TV cabinet in a month...so be it. I'm doing the best I can and sometimes that's just got to be good enough. Even though this is a UFO now at least I started the creative process. I haven't sewn anything since Rob got acutely sick. And I always forget how much sewing while it feels mechanical to me IS a creative process and I can't just turn it on whenever I want with no inspiration. So hopefully I'll finish this up next weekend and find somewhere to wear it sometime. Then I can start to think about my 1918 ensemble for August as I think that's the next event. And what this has taught me is I don't have the emotional energy I used to have to keep on chugging. I need to plan more time for it all...which isn't a strength of mine so someone help me remember that. :-p

Comments

[mre_awiwench]

Big hug... it’s beautiful.

[brickhousewench]

*hugs* As long as you're not nekkid, your friends will be happy to see you!

Hope you enjoy the day, even without new clothes.

[mala_14]

*hugs* You clearly have a ton on your plate and you deserve to take it easy on yourself. I hope you have a lovely time at the Georgian picnic with your friends, who I'm sure will just be happy to see you and spend time with you!

The bodice is stunningly gorgeous!

[lukitari]

Sewing is very much a creative process and it's very hard to make yourself to do it without inspiration. I couldn't sew anything when I had my sad years.
And yes, you have so much going on right now. The bodice itself is a big accomplishment. It's beautiful! It's going to be a beautiful dress when the time is right.

[chocolatepot]

Niiiiice! Look at those pleats!

I definitely can't turn on sewing inspiration whenever I feel like it. Don't beat yourself up!

[mandie_rw]

Now you can't lament to the rest of us that you're the only one who still wants to costume, you've moved on with your priorities too! ;) Hey, we did a lot of it for quite a few years, but none of us are in the same place we were in 2012, you know? Not saying we never will again, but when inspiration and/or time is at a low ebb, it doesn't help to try and force it, or kill yourself because there aren't enough hours in the day.

I haven't seen you since my birthday, so I'm happy to see you in whatever you show up in tomorrow! Unless it's jeans, haha. Don't show up to the picnic you're hosting in jeans.

[atherleisure]

It's beautifully done. I'm sorry you didn't get it finished in time, but working the kind of hours you do automatically cuts you some slack in my book. It's good you've got a couple of months to work on the 1918 ensemble.

[quincy134]

Lots of hugs! No one will care if you wear "this old thing," or if your house is not immaculate. They are there to have fun hanging out with you and other friends.

I'm so sorry to miss the picnic!

[quincy134]

(Also, that bodice in progress looks fabulous!)

[danabren]

If I lost friends because I didn't clean my house, I'd have no friends.

Once you have come to my house twice, I don't bother cleaning for you. So screw that thought process right there!

Do what you need to for you.

[mrs_maupin]

Your bodice is gorgeous !
Lots of hugs to you, take care of yourself first, you already have a lot going on, and even if you didn't finish the dress, you still made a very good start at it !

[howlgirl]

I have years where sewing takes a back seat to every other thing in my life.

Last year was literally the worst year of my life, because of this horribly managed work project. I hardly did any sewing because it was everything I could do to go to work every day, keep up a minimum cleanliness standard, and put something vaguely healthy on the table at dinner. Pizza is healthy dammit!

Reconnecting with friends is what is important!