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[robinsnest]

whoops haven't posted in ages...the Christmas season has been hard for me this year. More clearly I can see the chances of us having kids dimming and that makes a lot of it feel like "why bother" why have Christmas traditions if there's no one to pass them too, why does it matter? I barely managed the basics of presents for family and a tree. Rob was very helpful but he just doesn't have the sadness I do so to some extent he's left bewildered. But we made it through. My family came down the weekend after and I had a wonderful time being with them and those girls are just a hoot. I can't believe they're 7 and 5 already. Where does the time go?!



But please be impressed with my Christmas dinner part 2. I made a beef roast and it turned out perfectly! I was so proud of myself!



I can already tell we have passed the solstice as I feel the dark lessening. I love turning the corner to longer days. I'm so sun driven. And I now get the glory of a clean house to enjoy. My mom as a present cleaned my embarrassingly filthy fridge to brand new status, I got the bathroom sparkling and had to clean the sewing room for the girls to sleep in. I know I'm coming out of my depression because on a rainy disgusting day, instead of curling up and watching hallmark movies all day I went upstairs and excavated my sewing table so I could start another project. Mind you I didn't get as far as sewing but I did get as far as a clean space to do it in.

I also decided I wanted a regency outing so I'm going to wrangle whoever wants to go to Emma in February which will be fun. I want to make a new wool spencer and ruffly chemisette and an apron front dress.

I also want to go to Williamsburg in the beginning of February for their fashion weekend, need to get in touch with my MIL about the time share again...I really really need new stays. I wanted to use the Augusta Stays pattern...I should probably start sewing if I'm going to do 1/10th of this.

Comments

[penwiper]

That roast looks like a picture from a cookbook!

Well done on all the cleaning! That's one of the particularly annoying dilemmas of depression - being in a dirty house makes you more depressed, but you're too depressed to clean.

Yay, I hope to see you in February - that would be awesome!

[danabren]

I envy your cleaner sewing room! And that roast looks awesome.

[marianme]

The roast looks perfect. Good job.

Sorry. It’s hard grieving for unrealized children and it may always be tough especially around holidays. If you like holidays and traditions, please do them. Joy is joy even if in the small things like the smell of cinnamon. <3

[mala_14]

*hugs* Dealing with those kinds of feelings is tough. I feel for you and am glad that you are getting the benefit of longer days and a cleaner house (as well as the motivation to clean).

The roast looks wonderful! A well-cooked meal is a thing of beauty and joy forever.

[marianme]

Also, looking forward to your Regency makes since that's what I should be sewing...

[quincy134]

That roast looks amazing! Definitely better than anything I have made.

It would be awesome if you could come to Williamsburg! I haven't seen you in so long.

[atherleisure]

Merry Christmas! I'm glad the lengthening days are brightening your spirits. Good luck with your Regency sewing plans.

[brickhousewench]

Your roast beast looks perfect! I hope it was as delicious as it looks.

Thanks so much for the invitation to Emma. I'm pulling out my box of Regency fabric and patterns today!

[howlgirl]

I see this post as 100% win.

You made a beautiful roast, you normalized mental health issues, and you are making a path forward.

[totchipanda]

I was looking at Williamsburg at the beginning of Feb but lodgings were the most prohibitive part...

That roast looks tasty.