why

[robinsnest]

So It's been 24 hours and it doesn't feel any better. I keep thinking I have a grip and then falling apart again. I just don't understand. It came so out of the blue. What happened. What's wrong with me. what did i do!!! I thought we were happy. I felt special. I loved him.

i hurt so much.

I want to just be over it. move on. let it go.

The idea of losing his friendship and never seeing him again devestates me. He was such an important part of my life. How can I go on without him. And it hurts to love someone who doens't love you.

And no matter how good it seems it's all shit. I give up.

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[submissvdarling.livejournal.com]

i've been there...in fact i'm kinda there now. it hurts more than anything will ever hurt, and nothing anyone says can make it any better. know that everything happens for a reason and someday it might make sense. but for now just try and take care of yourself and know that there are many many people who love and care about you.