sewloud

So I haven't posted here in ages because I've been reading nonstop for grad school, I took the GREs on Tuesday, I had my first paper due in Grad school and work's been heck. oh yeah and I worked 7 days straight.

Now here I am finally have a day off from work and I'm so overwhelmed I don't know where to start:

I still have over 900 pages of reading to do by tuesday
My apt is a shite hole as I've neglected all cleaning for two weeks now and I don't think there's a clean dish in the house
I need to grocery shop like mad as we've been eating out because of lack of food which kills our budget
Laundry needs do as it's overflowing
I need to send Marcus and Shelly a card
oh did I mention CLEANING
and READING

And I don't even know where to start!! So I'll sit here and watch the view, wasting precious time as I feel overwhelmed.

I've been putting a lot of research into graduate programs, and I'm so confused as to what's the right way to go. Or if I'd even get INTO a graduate program.

1. Temple- Masters
pros: I think I have a stronger chance of getting into a masters program
They have a public history focus which I find really intriguing.
Cons: they offer NO financial aid to master's students

2. Temple- Phd
pros: Full scholarships available
          It's a PHD! 
          possibility of teaching academically
          They do have spring start dates if I can't get it together
cons: Deadline is dec 15th
          I need three academic references and I'm not sure who they'd be
          I need a writing sample, meaning i have to write a paper
          I'm doubtful I'd even get in.
          If I get a PHD does that limit me to teaching? what about being a curator? 
 
3. Upen Masters
pros: masters degree
cons: no financial aid available

4. UPenn PHD
Pros: full scholarship for almost all phd students
          Extremely strong track record for student placement in tenure track positions
cons: highly competitive I probably wouldn't get in
           Clearly geared towards creating tenure track professors

It doesn't help that I'm not sure beyond "i really really miss learning, I want academic challenges" that I'm not sure what i want in life. Does my strong missing of college indicate that really being a college professor WOULD be my best course of action? I would certainly be encouraged to write and research then. Is it dumb to try to get in without a masters? It says it's not required but is it really required? If I try to set up a meeting with someone from each of these departments is it tacky to try to find out what my odds of admission are? I know that seems like a bad question but I really want to know! do they accept non-standard track students. I don't have a bachelors that directly applies to history, but I've used my B.A. in theater to almost exclusively look at historical costume. 

Bah I don't know what to do with myself!