lessons in life

Today I woke up exhausted, one of those nights where I lost more energy in sleeping than in awakeness. My train of thought literally didn't stop, i woke up with the same thought I fell asleep with which is unusual. normally i'm given one moment of bliss before everything comes back. dreams, the day before whatever.
But as much as today has bad day written all over it I will not give in to it. I'm in a good mood. I won't let life mangle me anymore, it's MY life and i only get one so i might as well enjoy it. I think I fucked up my friendship with sean, ::sigh:: it's so easy to be tired and say the wrong thing. but, I'm going to have to move on i guess. I don't beg people to be friends with me. we'll see what happens i guess. Hopefully something good, like working through it and still being friends.
My day is also going to be crazy busy and I'm getting less and less sleep. normally i just nap in the afternoon if I feel myself slipping, sleep has become a war with myself. how much can I deny myself my escape...but i have to do laundry today and home work and then rehearsal and then unwind from rehersal. i really hate how even though I get out at 12 i can never sleep before 1 or later. it's my last IC players show. no one's come to see it. but oh well there will be other shows. Do your art for yourself not for others.

lessons in life

Today I woke up exhausted, one of those nights where I lost more energy in sleeping than in awakeness. My train of thought literally didn't stop, i woke up with the same thought I fell asleep with which is unusual. normally i'm given one moment of bliss before everything comes back. dreams, the day before whatever.
But as much as today has bad day written all over it I will not give in to it. I'm in a good mood. I won't let life mangle me anymore, it's MY life and i only get one so i might as well enjoy it. I think I fucked up my friendship with sean, ::sigh:: it's so easy to be tired and say the wrong thing. but, I'm going to have to move on i guess. I don't beg people to be friends with me. we'll see what happens i guess. Hopefully something good, like working through it and still being friends.
My day is also going to be crazy busy and I'm getting less and less sleep. normally i just nap in the afternoon if I feel myself slipping, sleep has become a war with myself. how much can I deny myself my escape...but i have to do laundry today and home work and then rehearsal and then unwind from rehersal. i really hate how even though I get out at 12 i can never sleep before 1 or later. it's my last IC players show. no one's come to see it. but oh well there will be other shows. Do your art for yourself not for others.

lessons in life

Today I woke up exhausted, one of those nights where I lost more energy in sleeping than in awakeness. My train of thought literally didn't stop, i woke up with the same thought I fell asleep with which is unusual. normally i'm given one moment of bliss before everything comes back. dreams, the day before whatever.
But as much as today has bad day written all over it I will not give in to it. I'm in a good mood. I won't let life mangle me anymore, it's MY life and i only get one so i might as well enjoy it. I think fucked up my friendship with sean, ::sigh:: it's so easy to be tired and say the wrong thing. but, I'm going to have to move on i guess. I don't beg people to be friends with me. we'll see what happens i guess.
My day is also going to be crazy busy and I'm getting less and less sleep. normally i just nap in the afternoon if I feel myself slipping, sleep has become a war with myself. how much can I deny myself my escape...but i have to do laundry today and home work and then rehearsal and then unwind from rehersal. i really hate how even though I get out at 12 i can never sleep before 1 or later. it's my last IC players show. no one's come to see it. but oh well there will be other shows. Do your art for yourself not for others.

lessons in life

Today I woke up exhausted, one of those nights where I lost more energy in sleeping than in awakeness. My train of thought literally didn't stop, i woke up with the same thought I fell asleep with which is unusual. normally i'm given one moment of bliss before everything comes back. dreams, the day before whatever.
But as much as today has bad day written all over it I will not give in to it. I'm in a good mood. I won't let life mangle me anymore, it's MY life and i only get one so i might as well enjoy it. I think fucked up my friendship with sean, ::sigh:: it's so easy to be tired and say the wrong thing. but, I'm going to have to move on i guess. I don't beg people to be friends with me. we'll see what happens i guess.
My day is also going to be crazy busy and I'm getting less and less sleep. normally i just nap in the afternoon if I feel myself slipping, sleep has become a war with myself. how much can I deny myself my escape...but i have to do laundry today and home work and then rehearsal and then unwind from rehersal. i really hate how even though I get out at 12 i can never sleep before 1 or later. it's my last IC players show. no one's come to see it. but oh well there will be other shows. Do your art for yourself not for others.

thank you megan!!! (stolen from her)

I stole this from someone else's journal...
I found this in a random journal I was leafing through. Thought yall might like to see. I agree with all of this:
Read each one carefully and think about it a second or two:

1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.

2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.

3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.

5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.

6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.

7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.

8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.

9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.

10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.

11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.

12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.

13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.

REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON.

thank you megan!!! (stolen from her)

I stole this from someone else's journal...
I found this in a random journal I was leafing through. Thought yall might like to see. I agree with all of this:
Read each one carefully and think about it a second or two:

1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.

2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.

3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.

5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.

6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.

7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.

8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.

9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.

10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.

11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.

12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.

13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.

REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON.

what a show

Tonight I really sat and listend to some of the things said in the show I just worked...So I thought there was no harm in posting a few of my favorite quotes:

From Icarus:

"Lesson one you don't let anything anybody says to you get to you. Lesson two , if it does you never let them know"

"streach your arm out and try to touch the moon, can you feel it? But what if you did it everyday and one day you did. you'd be holding light in your hand. what would that feel like? hot? icy? would it go up from your hand and all through your boday to here? or here? or here?"

"wouldn't it be scary if no one knew you better than I?"

"That's what you get. You pretend you have a right to dream. who gave you that right? who the hell are you, either of you, that you should be allowed to dream? and you couldn't dream small, neither, you ahd to dream big, as if you were worthy, as if you good enough"

"Better I should squash your dreams than someone who doesn't love you"

"you can never escape your past. you have to carry it with you, everywhere. but i'm not running from it. i'm taking it with me, and, as cumbersome and unwelcome as it might get, who would i be without it."

"Forward, always forward"

"i wish i could rip out your heard. i wish i could throw it on the ground and stomp on it. make it dust, make it disappear and it would still haunt me forever."

"okay so maybe he's not the ideal mate for her. you can match a navy blue sock and a black one and hardly anybody notices. yes, you can. please let her know that i'm setting her free. and thank her. you better rise nice and slow, sun. i'm going home."

So live as I do:

"everyone has something to hide. i mean...that's what makes people who they are..their secret. if we all just told everybody everything..i don't know..things would get...messy"

"you seem very willing to let people go and i wonder if it's because you never let them in."

"well that's not good enough. you can't keep doing thins. You can't just walk out on people after you make them care about you."

"don't say you love me. just don't. because you don't. and you won't and i can't handle being lied to"

what a show

Tonight I really sat and listend to some of the things said in the show I just worked...So I thought there was no harm in posting a few of my favorite quotes:

From Icarus:

"Lesson one you don't let anything anybody says to you get to you. Lesson two , if it does you never let them know"

"streach your arm out and try to touch the moon, can you feel it? But what if you did it everyday and one day you did. you'd be holding light in your hand. what would that feel like? hot? icy? would it go up from your hand and all through your boday to here? or here? or here?"

"wouldn't it be scary if no one knew you better than I?"

"That's what you get. You pretend you have a right to dream. who gave you that right? who the hell are you, either of you, that you should be allowed to dream? and you couldn't dream small, neither, you ahd to dream big, as if you were worthy, as if you good enough"

"Better I should squash your dreams than someone who doesn't love you"

"you can never escape your past. you have to carry it with you, everywhere. but i'm not running from it. i'm taking it with me, and, as cumbersome and unwelcome as it might get, who would i be without it."

"Forward, always forward"

"i wish i could rip out your heard. i wish i could throw it on the ground and stomp on it. make it dust, make it disappear and it would still haunt me forever."

"okay so maybe he's not the ideal mate for her. you can match a navy blue sock and a black one and hardly anybody notices. yes, you can. please let her know that i'm setting her free. and thank her. you better rise nice and slow, sun. i'm going home."

So live as I do:

"everyone has something to hide. i mean...that's what makes people who they are..their secret. if we all just told everybody everything..i don't know..things would get...messy"

"you seem very willing to let people go and i wonder if it's because you never let them in."

"well that's not good enough. you can't keep doing thins. You can't just walk out on people after you make them care about you."

"don't say you love me. just don't. because you don't. and you won't and i can't handle being lied to"