still here

Thank you all for your wonderful supportive comments on my last post. I am on the official waiting list. I am in the number two spot. I think it's highly unlikely that two people will go through all the steps to get into this very specific program then change their minds two weeks before classes start. All I can hope is that a few people's funding doesn't come through or something. The director seems to think that's pretty normal, but I'm not sure how much of that is her trying to be positive and get me off the phone.

So as I don't deal especially well with limbo and not knowing I have been distracting myself today with mindlessly easy sewing making a-line jumpers for my niece while blasting the angry music I loved in my late teens. I'm sure old ladies on my floor would be horrified with the profanity if they could hear it, but my experience with them has been they're pretty deaf.

Just trying to keep muddling on. I wouldn't mind waking up from a coma in two weeks and just being told Yes you are okay or No you still fail at life. I must look as sad as I feel as I went to Joann's for buttons today and Laura went "uh oh what's wrong with you"