well that sucked.

[robinsnest]

So I got let go today. The business just can't afford to pay me, and the mortage has to come before an employee. 

I feel a complete mix of emotions. Fear- what the hell am I going to do now? Anger, rejection, failure. I know it was a hard decision, and no one wanted this. (okay Bob possibly) but now I'm right back to the what-the-hell-do-I-do-with-my-life place. Going back to joann's is not an option. For one the manager that would have hired me back is gone, secondly there's no full time positions to be had, thirdly I am not going back to that schedule. so what skills do I really have?  A whole set that my hands don't want to let me use. 

I guess for the short term I'll file for unemployment and see if I can make some things for etsy to try and supplement. But that's a short term fix, the long term problem is that I need a career. A career with a stable job, with a regular schedule..I keep going back to the idea of teaching. I know no one is hiring now, but by the time I finished my masters the economy could be completely different. 

Rob's also got work today and tomorrow.  Which is awesome because it means money coming in..but also means I'm sitting here in a disaster of an apt alone for the next two days. I'll try to motivate myself to clean. Sew for etsy..focus on the immediate. I think I'll kind of lay low through the weekend. I'm going camping with my Sisters and Brother over the weekend so that's good.

oh yeah Monday's my birthday. 

So what the hell am I going to do with myself now? Maybe I'll go buy a lottery ticket..

Comments

[madamekat.livejournal.com]

Ugh, what a situation! Yup, I think making things for Etsy is a great idea! I've checked, and it really seems there isn't anything we'd call decent in the realm of steampunk bustle skirts on there. Grab some lovely bronze taffeta from Jomar and sell a few!

Have fun camping - it'll be good to get away from things for a few days.

[kass-rants.livejournal.com]

I think you should take the opportunity to become Rob's business manager. You have the skills to do it and I think you could get him better jobs and a more steady income for you both. An unemploymeny will be your cushion until you really get going.

[brickhousewench.livejournal.com]

*Hugs* Been there, done dat.

I highly recommend the book "What Color is Your Parachute" by Richard Bolles. The author updates it every year, and both your local library and bookstores should have it in stock. It's a godsend for people like us (English major here) who graduate and don't have a clue what they're going to be when they grow up. There are lots of little checklists to help you figure out what skills you have that are marketable. All sorts of good stuff in there.

Plus, you can feel like you're doing something about finding a job while you sit in a comfy chair with a cup of tea. Because I'm assuming your state is like my state, and you can't even file for unemployment until you've been out of work for a week? (I spent my first day of my layoff reading all the FAQs on the MA unemployment website so I could stop hyperventilating...)

And don't forget to *breathe*

[blackcat452.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry honey. I think you have a good plan for the short term and I know you'll think of something. Try to enjoy the weekend, it will help to get away.

[estela-dufrayse.livejournal.com]

I am so sorry to hear this for all of you guys.

School is always an option, but I think you have to be passionate about what ever you choose. I think the book mentioned by brickhousewench above is a good place to start. Take a moment, pour yourself a cuppa tea and relax. Figure out what makes you happy. If you take a minute to really listen to your own guts, they will tell you what to do next.


hugs

[jenlemus.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[fiofiorina.livejournal.com]

I am sorry to hear this. Very very sorry. I hope you'll find a new position soon. And yes - Etsy is a help. Even if it's not much, it might still help to make ends meet.

[myownsatellite.livejournal.com]

Duh, I should have read back further before commenting. I'm sorry!

That sucks that they had to let you go. You said sew for Etsy - do you have a shop there? I bet if you started doing that full-time maybe it could help out! People charge a lot of money for handmade dresses, corsets, etc. And you are an incredible costumer. Of all your pictures I've never seen anything that didn't look professionally done.

*big hugs* You can always call if you need to talk! My number is 518-618-7684.

[tayloropolis.livejournal.com]

Man, that sucks. There isn't much scarier than suddenly not knowing what you are doing or how you are going to pay the bills. Short term you could go out and find something- anything!- that will give you a place to go every day. While you are doing mindless work, you can contemplate your future!

Sometimes things like this end up being what sparks you on your career path, so keep an open mind!

*hugs*

[bauhausfrau.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry. :(

I've been there too and it was no picnic. I think brickhousewench's advice is good. One thing I'd like to go back in time to say to myself back when that happened to me is: enjoy being unemployed more.

Obviously it's stressful and you need to figure out a new income source but spend some time enjoying the things only the unemployed can - weekday afternoon movies, morning museum free days, lounging in the park on a Monday morning, nursing a cuppa joe at a hip cafe on a Wednesday, the quiet of the library when no one is there. And some of this can even be coupled with the job hunt!

Hugs and luck to you.

[koshka-the-cat.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry to hear this. I can't imagine how awful you must feel! I hope things work out, and you find something new soon.

*hugs*