well that sucked.

[robinsnest]

So I got let go today. The business just can't afford to pay me, and the mortage has to come before an employee. 

I feel a complete mix of emotions. Fear- what the hell am I going to do now? Anger, rejection, failure. I know it was a hard decision, and no one wanted this. (okay Bob possibly) but now I'm right back to the what-the-hell-do-I-do-with-my-life place. Going back to joann's is not an option. For one the manager that would have hired me back is gone, secondly there's no full time positions to be had, thirdly I am not going back to that schedule. so what skills do I really have?  A whole set that my hands don't want to let me use. 

I guess for the short term I'll file for unemployment and see if I can make some things for etsy to try and supplement. But that's a short term fix, the long term problem is that I need a career. A career with a stable job, with a regular schedule..I keep going back to the idea of teaching. I know no one is hiring now, but by the time I finished my masters the economy could be completely different. 

Rob's also got work today and tomorrow.  Which is awesome because it means money coming in..but also means I'm sitting here in a disaster of an apt alone for the next two days. I'll try to motivate myself to clean. Sew for etsy..focus on the immediate. I think I'll kind of lay low through the weekend. I'm going camping with my Sisters and Brother over the weekend so that's good.

oh yeah Monday's my birthday. 

So what the hell am I going to do with myself now? Maybe I'll go buy a lottery ticket..

Comments

[fiofiorina.livejournal.com]

I am sorry to hear this. Very very sorry. I hope you'll find a new position soon. And yes - Etsy is a help. Even if it's not much, it might still help to make ends meet.