falling apart
May. 5th, 2014 11:49 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
robinsnestI was supposed to start nursing school in two weeks. A great adventure. I bought my first day of school outfit. I was SO excited.
Apparently Villanova sent me a letter I didn't get. And I was supposed to send a deposit I didn't send. They gave my seat away.
I cannot stop sobbing. I cannot breath. I gave notice at work, I was ready for this change. Now I'm nowhere. They offered to defer my acceptance to 2015. Another year of scraping by, another year of working two jobs.
I am sobbing at the idea of having to tell everyone how I screwed up, how there's nothing I can do to fix it, how I'm a failure. I have never felt like such a failure. How am I going to tell my parents who were so proud. All the customers who were talking to me about my leaving. I feel so stupid for messing this up. I'm in a section of patho specifically for this program, I've been emailing with the director with questions. How did no one notice I wasn't in the program?
I don't know what to do. I want to curl up in a ball and never go out into the world again.
Apparently Villanova sent me a letter I didn't get. And I was supposed to send a deposit I didn't send. They gave my seat away.
I cannot stop sobbing. I cannot breath. I gave notice at work, I was ready for this change. Now I'm nowhere. They offered to defer my acceptance to 2015. Another year of scraping by, another year of working two jobs.
I am sobbing at the idea of having to tell everyone how I screwed up, how there's nothing I can do to fix it, how I'm a failure. I have never felt like such a failure. How am I going to tell my parents who were so proud. All the customers who were talking to me about my leaving. I feel so stupid for messing this up. I'm in a section of patho specifically for this program, I've been emailing with the director with questions. How did no one notice I wasn't in the program?
I don't know what to do. I want to curl up in a ball and never go out into the world again.
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Date: 2014-05-05 05:08 pm (UTC)Try saying this to tell people: "It's really annoying; there was a problem in some of the paperwork, and it couldn't get straightened out in time. I'm still going, but it will be later than I'd originally planned."
It's not your fault; you can't reach into the ether and read their minds about letters you didn't get. Also, by 2015, do they mean January or June?
Also, since you have the connection with the director, try talking to him or her about this. School bureaucracies often make slips like this, and director types often know who to talk to to get things ironed out if such a thing is possible.
I'm sorry you have to deal with this.