falling apart

[robinsnest]

I was supposed to start nursing school in two weeks. A great adventure. I bought my first day of school outfit. I was SO excited.


Apparently Villanova sent me a letter I didn't get. And I was supposed to send a deposit I didn't send. They gave my seat away.

I cannot stop sobbing. I cannot breath. I gave notice at work, I was ready for this change. Now I'm nowhere. They offered to defer my acceptance to 2015. Another year of scraping by, another year of working two jobs.

I am sobbing at the idea of having to tell everyone how I screwed up, how there's nothing I can do to fix it, how I'm a failure. I have never felt like such a failure. How am I going to tell my parents who were so proud. All the customers who were talking to me about my leaving. I feel so stupid for messing this up. I'm in a section of patho specifically for this program, I've been emailing with the director with questions. How did no one notice I wasn't in the program?

I don't know what to do. I want to curl up in a ball and never go out into the world again. 

Comments

[isabelladangelo.livejournal.com]

*hugs* You didn't screw up. You were accepted. You still are accepted. It's just not this year - it's next year. Yes, it's another year of saving up and working that you didn't plan on but you are still going. Demand a calendar to know when you need to make next year's deposit by. And if you do curl up into a ball and never go out into the world again, how on earth will you get to class next year?

[chocolatepot.livejournal.com]

Oh my god, that is so ... I'm so sorry.

But you are not a failure. The school failed, they should have contacted you by phone when you didn't send your deposit and given you a chance to pay it.

[bauhausfrau.livejournal.com]

Horrible stupid shit like this happens and it has nothing to do with you failing, as isabella says above - you were accepted!

Times like these you need to pull out all the stops - contact the director who you've been emailing and explain the situation. Ask if there is some sort of waiting list for people who drop out? Can you audit classes in the meantime? If worst comes to worst you go next year, and in the meantime maybe you have some fun costume adventures/travel you couldn't do while in school. Hang in there.

[lydianmode.livejournal.com]

This stinks. I'm sorry you're going through this.

Try saying this to tell people: "It's really annoying; there was a problem in some of the paperwork, and it couldn't get straightened out in time. I'm still going, but it will be later than I'd originally planned."

It's not your fault; you can't reach into the ether and read their minds about letters you didn't get. Also, by 2015, do they mean January or June?

Also, since you have the connection with the director, try talking to him or her about this. School bureaucracies often make slips like this, and director types often know who to talk to to get things ironed out if such a thing is possible.

I'm sorry you have to deal with this.

[mandie-rw.livejournal.com]

Oh my god...that is awful. I'm so sorry! That is certainly an epic fuckup on their part - not yours! Loren's right, do whatever and contact whoever you think can possibly do something at this point. Worst case, you ARE still accepted, even if it has to be next year. Which I know doesn't help at all now. But don't feel like a failure!

[jubilima.livejournal.com]

OH NO. Oh, goodness, I'm so sorry this happened. It's understandable how disappointed and frustrated you must be. I agree with bauhausfrau above--make sure there isn't a waitlist for you to get on, and make sure that the program director knows what happened. It's apparently just that easy for something to get lost in the mail, and they give away a seat just like that? Couldn't they have emailed or called? Hang in there--even if you defer your start for another year, you were accepted, you're gonna be great. One setback won't break you. (((hugs)))

[madamekat.livejournal.com]

That does suck. Remember when you missed the application deadline? It worked out in the end. This will, too. Thankfully these deadlines are also available online on the University website. Check the "important Dates" web page from time to time to make sure you are on track from here on out.

[girliegirl32786.livejournal.com]

I am so sorry! That is just a terrible situation. But I agree with the others, you didn't screw up. It was a terrible miscommunication. *hugs*

[quincy134.livejournal.com]

This was irresponsible on the part of nova, and not something to be ashamed of on your part. I agree that you should give them a push to see if there is a waiting list or mid-year entrance option. Someone else may pull out or defer. Hang in there, this is going to work out.

[tayloropolis.livejournal.com]

Oh no! How awful and heartbreaking and just so damned unlucky. *hugs* I'm so, so sorry. But forgive yourself. It sounds like someone at Villanova dropped the ball here. I mean what, they send you one letter and then that is it? How did no one call you? Or try to contact you some other way? That's really terrible.

[blackcat452.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry this happened. Is there another semester you can start in? Or see if there is a waiting list, since apparently they give seats away very quickly. Don't beat yourself up over this, if you have to wait a year, it's only a year. You are strong enough to handle it. Lots of hugs.

[koshka-the-cat.livejournal.com]

I can't imagine how horrible you must feel! How on earth can this happen??? I agree with everyone though--it's not your fault. Things will come together, and you'll be an incredible nurse. *hugs*

[brickhousewench.livejournal.com]

Oh sweetie, you're not a failure. *MASSIVE HUGS*

It will all work out. Maybe not the way you planned, but it will all work out. You'll get through this. I have faith in you.

*MOAR HUGS*

[heidilea.livejournal.com]

Fucking Bureaucracies.

The point here--YOU did not fail! They did. They failed you. YOU ARE NOT A FAILURE.
You shouldn't be embarrassed over someone else's mistake.

[laracorsets.livejournal.com]

OMG, I am so so sorry this happened to you!
Is there anything more you can do, anyone you can speak with? I cannot believe they did this to you!

It is not your fault at all! It sucks that all of your plans are blown but maybe it is the universe lining things up for you in a better way?
I will all happen for you. Hang in there. You would be amazed how fast a year blows by.

[myownsatellite.livejournal.com]

Oh Robbie I'm so sorry :( I agree with everyone else's suggestions. In the meantime, if you need to cry or vent or anything, I'm here for you. <3

[padawansguide.livejournal.com]

Oh no! I'm so so sorry to hear this! :-( You're not a failure - if you don't get a letter, how are you supposed to know? :-( :-(