falling apart

[robinsnest]

I was supposed to start nursing school in two weeks. A great adventure. I bought my first day of school outfit. I was SO excited.


Apparently Villanova sent me a letter I didn't get. And I was supposed to send a deposit I didn't send. They gave my seat away.

I cannot stop sobbing. I cannot breath. I gave notice at work, I was ready for this change. Now I'm nowhere. They offered to defer my acceptance to 2015. Another year of scraping by, another year of working two jobs.

I am sobbing at the idea of having to tell everyone how I screwed up, how there's nothing I can do to fix it, how I'm a failure. I have never felt like such a failure. How am I going to tell my parents who were so proud. All the customers who were talking to me about my leaving. I feel so stupid for messing this up. I'm in a section of patho specifically for this program, I've been emailing with the director with questions. How did no one notice I wasn't in the program?

I don't know what to do. I want to curl up in a ball and never go out into the world again. 

Comments

[madamekat.livejournal.com]

That does suck. Remember when you missed the application deadline? It worked out in the end. This will, too. Thankfully these deadlines are also available online on the University website. Check the "important Dates" web page from time to time to make sure you are on track from here on out.