cowboy take me away...
May. 23rd, 2003 02:17 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
robinsnestNovember 4, 1999, an excerpt from Robin-Anne's journal, "We have a cool tech kid named matt he's okay. I guess" so that's when it all began...
since I've come home everything that used to feel right just no longer fits. I see things in people I never really saw before, and they aren't really pleasant things. I stumbled upon a stack of old journals this morning. and by old i mean "i love tim rice" first grade old. I laughed a lot at the things I thought were worth writing down. One that caught my eye was december 28, 1999..."I had a revalation this morning when i realized that i really wanted to fall in love. we were watching never been kissed yesturday and this morning i realized just how much i wanted to fall in love, not with some bumbling high school boy, but with a mature guy who i can really talk to and tell everything to, i want someone to just hold me in his arms, fingers entwined in mine, lips on my hair, letting me just lean against his strenght. i want to feel his strong arms around me, his chest next to mine, I want to run my fingers through his hair and i want him to give me my first real kiss, sweet and strong, intoxicating almost, knocking me off my feet..."
well i got my first kiss, from Matt wiley a bumbling high school freshman, and it was sloppy and dissapointing. it's funny to me how much as a naive high school girl i thought that there was magic in a kiss. while i would argue there still CAN be magic in a kiss, the magic doesn't come from the kiss itself but the people behind it. i think i need to go meet some new men.
since I've come home everything that used to feel right just no longer fits. I see things in people I never really saw before, and they aren't really pleasant things. I stumbled upon a stack of old journals this morning. and by old i mean "i love tim rice" first grade old. I laughed a lot at the things I thought were worth writing down. One that caught my eye was december 28, 1999..."I had a revalation this morning when i realized that i really wanted to fall in love. we were watching never been kissed yesturday and this morning i realized just how much i wanted to fall in love, not with some bumbling high school boy, but with a mature guy who i can really talk to and tell everything to, i want someone to just hold me in his arms, fingers entwined in mine, lips on my hair, letting me just lean against his strenght. i want to feel his strong arms around me, his chest next to mine, I want to run my fingers through his hair and i want him to give me my first real kiss, sweet and strong, intoxicating almost, knocking me off my feet..."
well i got my first kiss, from Matt wiley a bumbling high school freshman, and it was sloppy and dissapointing. it's funny to me how much as a naive high school girl i thought that there was magic in a kiss. while i would argue there still CAN be magic in a kiss, the magic doesn't come from the kiss itself but the people behind it. i think i need to go meet some new men.
hang on....
Date: 2003-05-25 08:52 am (UTC)Don't worry, you'll find someone to make magic with someday if you're patient, and you'll probably find the person where you least expect it. Time after time, Dana tried to explain how love feels to me and I just didn't think I'd ever find it. But now that I have, I see how true her words were. Hang in there.
-Emilie
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