robinsnest | I saw an oriel today

I hate being around my mother before a trip, especially one to see her family. I don't know why but she gets all paranoid like everything has to be perfect for them, family of all people i would think would be willing to let your flaws slide.
around trip time my mother turns into this paranoid ball of stress. nothing is good enough, we're never helpful enough, nothing's fast enough, clean enough, and it's really stressful on ALL of us. She snaps at my dad, mark and I (molly's at camp) and I just want to grab and hug her and tell her it'll be okay but I think i'd get yelled at for doing that sometimes.

in related news, the wetherbee family reunion is this weekend, can't say I'm really dying to go. it's a lot of family stuff, which I don't really get. I mean I deeply love my immediate family who i see all the time and grew up with. but all the cousins who i almost neve talk to? while they're really nice and all I can't say I feel some deep emotional connection to them. As an amusement to myself I told one person, Downey,that I was leaving in case dave needed me twork, but I'm curious to see if anyone notices I'm gone. I predict those who amy d. tells will and no one else. i bet chris, wiley, people at work, sio, and anyone else who i've seen lately won't even notice. i bet brian mccarthy will because in some weird ways he's very observant.