why

[robinsnest]

So It's been 24 hours and it doesn't feel any better. I keep thinking I have a grip and then falling apart again. I just don't understand. It came so out of the blue. What happened. What's wrong with me. what did i do!!! I thought we were happy. I felt special. I loved him.

i hurt so much.

I want to just be over it. move on. let it go.

The idea of losing his friendship and never seeing him again devestates me. He was such an important part of my life. How can I go on without him. And it hurts to love someone who doens't love you.

And no matter how good it seems it's all shit. I give up.

Comments

[purplebunnie.livejournal.com]

it's not you. it isn't. there is nothing wrong with you. you're perfect and you're special and there can be a thousand reasons sometimes that things just don't work out. even though it sucks and it hurts and it's so hard to let go. but it's still not you.

and i know you can hear this a thousand times and tell yourself this a thousand more times and still not believe it or feel any better. because it's no form of relief, it still sucks.

life bites. love bites. but we keep doing it to ourselves anyway. even if it's only good for one minute in the past, it still outweighs the rest of the times that it blows.

i quit too. remember there's always the amazonian tribe.

plus i'm learning swordplay so we can upgrade the pointy sticks now.

[dragoneyes19.livejournal.com]

sweet! Pointy sticks! I would love to run away to an amazon tribe for a few months. that'd be nice.

[purplebunnie.livejournal.com]

let's go! i'm not kidding.