robinsnest | Entries tagged with my poor scale

But I actually updated my blog

I finally put my finger on why I don't seem to do post-event-recaps, or pictures of things, or update my blog anymore. I just too strongly dislike how I look and feel. It's hard to look at a photo and not see "me" but some weird person that looks like an over-inflated-me. Need to get back on the fitness bandwagon. Big time.

Current Mood: satisfied

Lets see I've started clinicals now. I'm at Penn Presbyterian Hospital down town on a general med surg floor that mostly gets ortho patients but has a fair amount of overflow patients from the general population. I shadowed a nurse on Thursday and this Wednesday I'll get my first patient. I am of course still nervous to have a real patient but also excited. I LOVED shadowing, it was very reassuring to me that it felt so "right." Waking up at 5am IS taking some adjusting, but like all things worthwhile sacrifices must be made.

I have been sewing..........a tiny tiny bit. I cut out a new pair of stays and got half of my boning channels all marked out. And I'm one line away from finishing the first of the two blackwork cuffs.

thinking about the ren faire I don't feel like making something new. Frankly I don't feel very welcome to join my "friends" anymore there. So while Rob wants to go and dress up and we will no doubt go at least twice I think my goal is to lose enough weight to re-wear something. Preferably my green dress as it will go well with my blackwork cuffs if I finish the other. (One of Rob's groomsmen is King Henry this year and Rob very much wants to go play with him, so we'll go and crash with Ryan a few times and just hang out no doubt. Probably just for a random day on our own.)

Oh and on Wednesday my Mom and Brother-in-law fly to Africa to visit my Brother. Please think safe thoughts for their trip and return.

Current Mood: tired

I've been ignoring my weight since before Christmas..and that's bad. I've fallen off the fitness wagon and have been feeling very depressed which has just resulted in my eating WAY too much junk food. I felt horrible and tubby at the card party and I have twice as many chins as I want. Plus with weight gain my IBS gets worse. So it's time to get it back together. I'm going to record my activity and weigh-ins here as a way of keeping myself honest. But I realize that may be boring to most people, SO if you want to be on a filter about my fitness just comment and I'll add you. My feelings won't be hurt AT ALL if you're not interested. Personally I like encouraging people, but I know I'm not everyone.

So lets start it off:

Weight today: 159.1 (My highest weight EVER a full 15lbs more than at my wedding)

Goal: I have a month until the fraçaise dinner. I would like to lose 5lbs by then.
I'm going to work out at least 3 times a week, I KNOW I need to do more than that but if I can get myself started going 3 times a week I'll consider that a victory.
I'm going to use myfitnesspal again to track my calorie input. I find I snack alot less when I have to track it all.