but what if i wanted dp dough...

As the weariness of a day of action slowly settles on my body I have an ache for that place of relaxation, that place you reach when you share something so deep with someone for just that moment it's okay to finally just stop defending and relax. to stop sucking your stomach in and stop standing up straight. to just nuzzle and cuddle...I don't want to feel protected or comforted or made to feel safe, I just want to listen to someone talk, and share a few stories of my own and slowly just relax. snuggle up and listen to his heart beat. feel warm breath upon my neck. I want to idlely play with someone's hair, walk my fingers across his chest. I just want to learn all about him and I want him to want to learn about me too. If i could find that, just that I'd be the happiest girl on earth. I don't need sex, i don't need love beyond that, because i don't believe there is a love truer or more importnat than that kind. Hell I don't even need longevity...consitency would be nice. I want eyes to get lost in. Perhaps what I want is more of a best friend than a boyfriend, or more of a lover than a boyfriend could ever be. perhaps what makes those nights so fucking amazing is that they are not something that you can have all the time so whenever they happen they're increadibly special. I have shared these nights before. but somehow they don't seem to make people as achingly happy as they make me. someday. I have faith in very little. but I have faith in that tonight. not usually but tonight.

as dawn slowly broke the seal of night
cracking at the horizon
and the first rays of sunshine slowly danced across my pillow
I looked up and saw a new day being born
i breathed deeply the air
and found arms around me
phantoms arms enfold me
every night they hold me
some morning i dream
of waking to find them still solid
an angel having crept down to sleep safetly protecting me
while in waking as in dreams

but what if i wanted dp dough...

As the weariness of a day of action slowly settles on my body I have an ache for that place of relaxation, that place you reach when you share something so deep with someone for just that moment it's okay to finally just stop defending and relax. to stop sucking your stomach in and stop standing up straight. to just nuzzle and cuddle...I don't want to feel protected or comforted or made to feel safe, I just want to listen to someone talk, and share a few stories of my own and slowly just relax. snuggle up and listen to his heart beat. feel warm breath upon my neck. I want to idlely play with someone's hair, walk my fingers across his chest. I just want to learn all about him and I want him to want to learn about me too. If i could find that, just that I'd be the happiest girl on earth. I don't need sex, i don't need love beyond that, because i don't believe there is a love truer or more importnat than that kind. Hell I don't even need longevity...consitency would be nice. I want eyes to get lost in. Perhaps what I want is more of a best friend than a boyfriend, or more of a lover than a boyfriend could ever be. perhaps what makes those nights so fucking amazing is that they are not something that you can have all the time so whenever they happen they're increadibly special. I have shared these nights before. but somehow they don't seem to make people as achingly happy as they make me. someday. I have faith in very little. but I have faith in that tonight. not usually but tonight.

as dawn slowly broke the seal of night
cracking at the horizon
and the first rays of sunshine slowly danced across my pillow
I looked up and saw a new day being born
i breathed deeply the air
and found arms around me
phantoms arms enfold me
every night they hold me
some morning i dream
of waking to find them still solid
an angel having crept down to sleep safetly protecting me
while in waking as in dreams