we're still alive
Apr. 20th, 2020 09:43 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
robinsnest hmm haven't posted in a while, bad me. Although I have been reading a lot? we're still kicking. In some ways it's not really that different here, Rob's got zero work for the foreseeable future, which isn't THAT abnormal for him if I'm honest. He goes very hot and cold. I've stopped being at my second job due to the fact no one is going to the doctor if they can at all avoid it and they asked me to not come in to save payroll. But I was on the verge of saying "I think my risk of exposure at a doctor's office is too high to risk bringing to my main job kids" anyway so it was a win win. For those who missed it I'm an RN at a facility for medically complex kids, most are on Vents or trachs. So far we've kept Covid away from the kids, but I fear it's only a matter of time till a staff member gets sick and brings it inside. It will be catastrophic when it does.
The general anxiety of the world is starting to get to both of us, Rob's OCD is in fine form (it's germ based....feel bad for him). My response to stress, anxiety and quarantine is unfortunately NOT one of productivity. It's definitely more of a blanket-over-my-head kind. I've been making videos for my youtube channel as a distraction but not really sewing or cleaning or that much productive. Rob has been good about poking us to go out into the garden and work so at least there's that. Today we found half of the garden path that I thought was 12" of bricks and is actually like 36" wide.
I felt too unsettled to edit video tonight and Rob is super nicely just doing it. I keep saying it can wait, but I think he's enjoying the creative outlet too.
The weirdest part of Covid-19 is that I feel a fair amount of survivor guilt that I'm a nurse with vent experience and I'm NOT on the front lines, I'm not saving lives or risking mine. I'm not standing in front of cars of idiots or doing anything to really help. Yes my kids would need a nurse either way and no I shouldn't risk bringing it to them but....I could be doing more.
The general anxiety of the world is starting to get to both of us, Rob's OCD is in fine form (it's germ based....feel bad for him). My response to stress, anxiety and quarantine is unfortunately NOT one of productivity. It's definitely more of a blanket-over-my-head kind. I've been making videos for my youtube channel as a distraction but not really sewing or cleaning or that much productive. Rob has been good about poking us to go out into the garden and work so at least there's that. Today we found half of the garden path that I thought was 12" of bricks and is actually like 36" wide.
I felt too unsettled to edit video tonight and Rob is super nicely just doing it. I keep saying it can wait, but I think he's enjoying the creative outlet too.
The weirdest part of Covid-19 is that I feel a fair amount of survivor guilt that I'm a nurse with vent experience and I'm NOT on the front lines, I'm not saving lives or risking mine. I'm not standing in front of cars of idiots or doing anything to really help. Yes my kids would need a nurse either way and no I shouldn't risk bringing it to them but....I could be doing more.
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Date: 2020-04-21 08:08 pm (UTC)